The bad boy, Harry Styles

Chapter 11

(Violet p.o.v)

It was the next day and this was the last time I would sneak in and try to find his diary. When I dressed myself and did my make up and everything I called in sick for school and waited till it was later. When three hours passed, where I only watched tv, I walked out of my dorm and walked to Harry's and Niall's dorm. Strange enough there was no one there, but the door was unlocked. I opened the door and closed it behind me while I stepped in. I had to be fast, because I had no idea where they were, but I had a strange kind of feeling in my stomach this could go wrong. I walked over to Harry's bed opened his nightstand to look of his diary was in there and it was. I took it out and opened it. I took a random page and start reading it.

It won't go away.... the memories...the nightmares....

Nothing helps.... Sometimes at night I wake up screaming for help, but nobody is there.

Just like that last time. No one came to help me. No one heard me or even bothered to come and look what happened.

The therapy doesn't work, but worse of all... I don't feel love.

I don't feel the love my mom is giving me.. I don't feel the love my best friend gives me.

I only love someone who doesn't know and I think she also doesn't love me back.

I hate it.

H.S

This is horrible I thought by myself, what could have happened to Harry that made him so lifeless, so depressed and why is he feeling unloved. He also loves someone that doens't love him back, but I wonder who that 'she' might be. I feel a strange feeling in my chest. Would I be jealous?.. No I don't think I like Harry... or do I? I went to another page, because I still didn't know what happened.

It hurts so much... my head, my heart, everything. At this moment I wish I wasn't here and that it never happened. It hurts just so much as when Jack raped me....

Harry was raped... this is horrible. That's why he hates gay people, because he was raped by a men. I can't imagine how it would have hurt him, emotional and physical. I had no other time to think, because I heard someone at the door. I trew the diary back in his nightstand and closed it and stood up and I saw the large window was open and I wanted to walk to there, but I was to late, because the door already opened. I turned around to see non other then Harry Styles standing in the door. ''What are you doing in my room?'', he asks almost angry. ''I..I'', I wanted to start, but then I remembered I had read Harry's song yesterday and put the paper in my pocket. I took it out and gave it to Harry. ''You umh lost this in the hallway'', I say and he looks at the paper. ''How do you know it is mine?'', he asks. ''Well I heard you singing a few days ago when I walked in the hallway... it was really beautiful, you have an amazing voice'', I tell him and he gives me a small smile. ''Yeah, but I still can't finish it'', he says. ''But how did you get into my room?'', he asks. ''Oh umh the door was unlocked and I was trying to find you'', I say. ''Weren't you sick?'', he asks. ''Sick? oh yeah! I didn't feel well, I still don't but uhm yeah...it looked important to me this paper so I wanted to bring it back you know?'', I lie. ''Yeah, but I don't remember taking this paper somewhere, because I put it in my diary'', he says and my face becomes pale. ''You read it didn't you?'', he says and becomes more angry. ''I-I don't know what you are t-talking about'', I say. He comes closer, but at that moment the door opens. I see it is Niall and he points at me. ''You, I need to talk to you now!'', he says and pulls me with him. We walk outside, where nobody else is and sit down at a bench. ''I know something is going on. I also saw you last time in our room and today again. The janitor is also a friend of us and told me one of our girlfriends came to pick her books up, but we both don't have a girlfriend. So I asked how she looked like and the description he gave just looked like you, so what are you doing? tell me what do you know?'', he says. ''I-I uhm..'', I try to say, but don't know what to say further. ''Yeah? go on'', Niall says. ''I wanted to know what was wrong with Harry. because he is always bipolar and acting strange, so I went to your room and you guys weren't there and I found Harry's diary and there I found out''... ''That he was raped'', Niall finished and I nod. ''But I don't understand.. what happened to him?'', I ask. ''That's not my place to tell. Please don't ask Harry to much, he can't do that emotional'', he says and I nod. ''I just want to help'', I say. ''If you just want to help, give him love'', he says and walks away. I don't know what he meant by saying ''Give him love'', Harry wrote himself that he doesn't feel love anymore.. this is all so complicated

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