I used to be so happy, so free,
Now I wish I was all of those things,
Hurt has a way of changing people but only a few believe such a theory,
You never know how much it hurts until youre in that position,
I yell i do not care but I care more than ever,
I curse and lash out at everyone around me hoping that just maybe they will notice something has changed,
Maybe they will help me feel better,
But I feel worst,
Why cant anyone see me for the girl I really am ,
And not the girl they wish I was,
My eyes reveal my secrets but nobody sees them they just judge me for being the way that I am,
I hate the way I am,
I feel disappointed ,
I wish I was better,
I feel as though my whole life is a rotten mess ,
I feel as though im dwelling in a black hole far away from humanity,
As the days go by I sink deeper and deeper while screaming like anyone would ever hear me,
Why me I ask?
Because you hurt the ones closest to you,
Because you make some people feel unwelcomed ,
Because you dont see your worth ,
I know dammit!!
I can't control it anymore I just want someone to love me goshhh just love me please!!
I mess up everyday but I cant get better on my own,
I allowed depression to infiltrate my mind and now it is dragging me closer to death's door as I wish I could experience what I though was 'happiness'.
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PoetryStop sitting on the sidelines judging others and just try to understand them instead.