The Green-Eyed Writer

12-The Confession

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Nagmamahal, Ms. A

Ito ang nakita kong status ni Nessie sa kanyang dummy account nang mag-log in ako sa FB. I'm also using a dummy account for my Wattpad writing at friends kami ni Nessie dito.

Of course, I've been following her every move lalo na ngayon at papasikat na siya. Mas  dumadami nasa friend list niya, and most of her status updates were shared posts from the Watty Love PH fanpage. Minsan, may fan art din gaya ng calligraphy quotes or edited pictures ng kanyang portrayers.

I may sound stalker-ish, but I can't help it. She was starting to become the competition for me, and it makes me wonder why people are fawning over her jeje stories.

I caught myself thinking of these dark thoughts again. Hindi ko dapat iniisip ito, lalo na kaibigan ko siya. Pero bakit di ko mapigilan ang sarili?

Nag-pop ang notif ng aking Messenger. It's Nine.

Uy, daan ako sa school mo tomorrow! Gusto ko lang dumalaw. See you at lunch time.

I genuinely smiled.

Oo naman, why not?

I sent the message to her.

Libre mo ako sa canteen niyo, hehehe

I responded with a smiley face. Then, I decided to spill the beans about my feelings towards Nessie.

Nine, ummm, bothered ako na sikat si Nessie kaysa sa akin

I sent it. Seen niya agad.

Nine: Inggit ka. Kasi gusto mo kung anong meron siya. All the reads na ang bilis niyang makuha.

Who wouldn't want that as an author? tanong ko kay Nine.

Nine: nakita mo naman stories niya, di ba? Personally, I wouldn't want to be in her shoes. Fame isn't always a pretty picture. Di siya kainggit-inggit.

Malalim kong inisip ang mga sinabi ni Nine. Oo nga naman, di lahat ng fame ay maganda.

Nine: Forever na ako fangirl mo, kaya huwag mo naisin kung anong meron si Jeje Girl. Mas magaling ka doon, believe me.

Me: Thanks

I sent it to Nine. I felt good about what she said, kahit na I'm being compared against my BFF. Call me nasty, but magandang pampalubag-loob ito sa ngayon. Kahit na di ako sikat, there's one, a handful of readers, who believes in me and my works.

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The next day, nagkita kami ni Nine sa canteen.  She gave me a big bear hug, dahil first time namin magkita since last year. Nine looks really fluffy in person, with a bit of weight gain, long wavy hair, and clear skin. Nakasuot siya ng Korean-style na jumper dress na may stripes na panloob, and may backpack siya na may rabbit ears.

"Wash day namin, which explains the civilian get-up," casual niyang sabi as we walked to the counter.  "I have two hours na vacant, kaya sulitin natin to!"

"Ako rin, 3pm pa next class ko. By the way, cute mo, teh! Para kang taga-Kdrama!" I gushed cheerfully.

"Syempre, gusto ko magandahan sa akin si Lodi author!" She squeezed my arm playfully, and we both laughed.

We both ordered chicken fingers rice meal na may kasamang Barbecue sauce. Sa may bungad kami ng pintuan naupo. While eating, masaya ang naging usapan namin.