01- Meeting you

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If you had to choose
between yourself
or the one you love
which would you choose?

Honestly
I'd choose the other person.
I constantly say this
Whenever someone
Asks me this question.

The reason why
Is kind of
Depressing.
My mind decided
That I'm not worthy.
I'm not worthy enough
To even be alive.

I was an accident.
My mother constantly
Tells me during arguments.
She says the same thing:
"You are my happy accident"
But she doesn't sound too glad
That I'm her 'happy accident'.

I knew I had to put myself
Behind others at a young age.
I knew that if they were sad
It was always my fault
Even if I wasn't around.

But then you came around
You were new at school
When I was a Junior
And you were one too.
You were the best girl
I've ever met.
You were kind to me.
You made me feel different.
You made me feel
Human.

Not my mom's
'happy accident'
But an actual human being
With proper emotions
And the ability to be
Selfish.

Is it selfish if I say
That I want to get to know you
Outside of school?

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This is the first time I tried something like this? I'm trying to learn how to write like this.

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