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chapter twenty-one: christmas

The back lot behind the house with the infinity pool overlooking a wide expanse of green field was swarming with more guests. Mae didn't know how many people Jins and the Lys knew, but it sure was a lot.

Mae's mother gaped at the beautiful landscape. The sun setting behind the trees in the distance made it all the more picturesque.

And in the… the smaller distance, were the two boys Mae was subtly dreading to see. Parker and Dustin and a few others were crowded around a bonfire, beers in hand. Wide Cheshire cat grins were spread across both of their faces as they laughed loudly with each other. Happy wrinkles creased near their eyes and their eyes shone bright themselves.

Mae felt a pang of guilt hit her in the chest. They were so happy. She didn't deserve those two. Parker was right: they'd let a stupid girl get in the way of their friendship. She'd let herself get in the way of their friendship.

Her mother followed her unbreaking gaze and nodded in understanding. “Are they…?”

The silent question had Mae bobbing her head.

“Go talk to them,” she urged, unlinking their arms to nudge her daughter onward.

Mae shook her head. “No, I can't. Do you see how happy they are? I—I shouldn't have gotten in the way in the first place. I don't deserve any of them. I've only made things worse. I'm not going to do that again.”

“So what are you going to do after this, Mae?” Her mother questioned, hands on her hips. “Are you just going to go back to school, see them, and act as if the three of you never had anything going on in the first place? I hate to say it, honey, but you're being a coward…”

“Then that's what I'll be,” Mae replied softly, her words anything but. Something flashed in her mother's eyes, but Mae was already walking away.

She followed after her, the two of them zooming through the corridors of the house much faster than they did a few minutes ago.

“Oomph!” Mae gasped, stopping short. Peter Ly sat on the ground before her having had ran straight into her. He glanced up and beamed. “MAE! You're here!”

Mae grinned, bending down onto one knee to look at him at eye level. “Of course I'm here, Pete. I wouldn't miss your Christmas Party for the world.”

When he stood, Mae did the same. Her mother stood to the side watching.

“I got you a present,” he chirped. “It's under the tree. Parky says we can't open presents until later, but I can give it to you now if you want. Parky and Dusty don't have to know.”

Mae's smile faltered slightly. “You're so sweet, Pete. I got you a present, too, but I think we should just wait until later.”

Pete frowned slightly. “Oh, that's okay. Does Parker know you're here? Have you met Dustin's parents yet? They're back from their trip. Also, did you know that the popcorn strings on the tree taste better than the popcorn in the bowls in the kitchen?”

All of the questions were forced at her in one breath. At least Mae could now confirm that Dustin's parents were back.

“Well,” she began, “I don't think the boys know I'm here yet—but don't tell them, okay?” Peter gave her a bizarre look, but she only continued, “No, I have not met Dustin's parents yet, but I'm sure I will later. And no, I didn't know that. I've never tried Christmas tree popcorn before.”

Pete snickered. “You should try it. No one will notice anyway.”

“Very true.”

He paused, his expression showing his hesitation. “Why… Why don't you want me to tell them that you're here?”

Mae bit her bottom lip. She knew this was coming… how could she possibly explain this to him? “It's… complicated. That probably doesn't make any sense.”

“Are you mad at them? Are they mad at you?”

Mae quickly shook her head. “No, no. It's not that, Pete. It's just… it's hard to explain. You may not understand until you're older.”

Peter balked, frowning dramatically and crossing his arms over his chest. “Everyone keeps saying that. Why don't you try to explain it to me? I can learn it.”

The corner of her lips quirked up. “Okay, but you have to be a good listener… boy A and boy B are best friends. They have been since years and years ago. But one day, a girl comes into their lives. This girl went by two names and two different personalities: there was type 1 and type 2. Boy A liked type 1, while boy B liked type 2 of the girl.

“Then they both realize that these types were the same exact person. They fought over this girl and now there's a gap…” Mae's voice broke. Maybe she just wasn't ready for a relationship. Maybe that was it. That's why she didn't put enough effort in when it counted. “... There's a gap between the girl and the boys. But the boys built a bridge between the gaps to each other. The girl left the gap there.”

Pete gazed up at her, ears perked and eyes gleaming. “Does the girl like the boys?” He asked her softly.

She nodded, just barely. “Of course she does. It's hard to explain, Pete.”

“You're the girl… aren't you?”

She smiled through her silver-lined eyes. “Yes. I am.”

He gulped, staring at the ground. “I can help you,” he told her. “I can help you build a bridge to them.”

Mae shook her head, “Thank you, but I couldn't do that. I couldn't have you do that for me. You're so sweet, Pete, and the bridge between us will never fall. But… it's time that gap stayed. That gap should stay because they are happier with that gap.”

The boy stared up at her for only a second before hugging her tightly. Mae returned the hug, blinking back the traitorous tears in her eyes. She shouldn't be crying. She shouldn't be crying. She shouldn't be—

“I get it, Mae,” she heard him whisper, a barely audible sound. “I get it.”

a/n: Pete's always been a sweet kid... Will Mae mend the relationship between them or leave it broken?