Paradox

One last time

You're transparent.
I can see right through you.
I look into your eyes,
And all I seem to do is search for lies.

I'll analyse every inch and every feature.
Desperate to find a way,
to free myself from this
Bittersweet little lie.

The promises you've made,
Have once again been broken,
And so is the last shred of dignity I had.
And yet you still wonder,
Why I'm always on edge.

There was once a time,
When I believed you were my saviour.
So caught up with the idea of love,
I forgot how toxic  you really were.

You were compelling from the start,
I couldn't help but fall a little more.
I had tried to resist, to play along.
But somewhere along those lines.
I had begun to actually care.

There wasn't an escape,
I was hidden under lock and key.
The toxicity of our relationship,
Was unbearable, I needed a way out.

Only I know what I had been through,
overthinking millions of thoughts.
I dared not to think of my future,
For I feared I'd never get a chance
To feel the same way I once did

It had all started,
With a platonic intimacy.
A few shared interests,
And a deep bond.
I just knew you were the one.

The sudden distance,
Had only made our hearts grow fonder.
A recipe for a disaster,
If you were to have asked me.

I've learned the hard way,
To never trust a soul but your own.

I'm content on my own,
No worries, no sorrows.
I'm not alone,
And neither are you.

It was finally time,
I wish you the best,
Whilst I bid my very own farewells.

I'll always miss you,
As You'll always be a part of my heart.

But just promise me one thing,
Please don't forget.
Keep our memories,
And cherish our love.

You were the one,
Not so long ago.
So please just hear me out,
When I say;

'I'd like to have the chance,
To say goodbye,

And to say I love you,
Just one last time.'

~Herwordsoffantasy