Poetry [Completed]

Im Fine

If you ask me how Im doing, I will say, "Im fine."

If you ask me how how much I lie, I'll reply, "At rare times."

The truth is, I constantly lie.

The biggest lie being, "Don't worry, Im fine."

I hate my body, my personality and, in all actuality, I hate me.

 
But the thing I hate most is my awful psyche.

This is a warning; Please beware.

Once you enter my mind you can't get out of there.

No matter how hard you hit or scrape, the walls of my mind just will not break.

Believe me, I've tried. I post happy tweets and Im cheery on instagram.

But nothing distracts me from the monster that I am.

I am a creature witha sick mind and twisted ways.

I have false hope a faux happiness.

I give fake smiles to hide my dull eyes.

I say that Im happy and I say that Im glad but the truth of the matter is; Im so far beyond sad.

I start to gwt better but then something else happens.

I just want an escape. A room from the madness.

I tell a lot of jokes and preach self love.

Really, I can't stand the me that I've become.

I want to desperately tell someone that I feel like a joke.

No one will believe me though. They'll just say, "Have hope!"

I don't know if this poem will ever get read but hopefully whoever reads it can help control the thoughts in my head.

I am a liar; The biggest of my time.

My biggest lie yet?

"Don't worry."

"Im fine."

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I wrote this about a week ago and i cannot EXPLAIN the amount of CRINGE.

(Word count: 289)