Cimorelli Saved Me (Book 1)

Chapter 8

Bella's POV

I have a huge secret. It's one of my biggest ones. I self harm. It started when I couldn't find ways to deal with everything and it just... happened. I didn't realize how addictive it is until it was too late.

I've been almost 2 months clean. But now is not the time I'm thinking about that. All I can think about is how I'm worthless, a failure. I lock my door and find my blade I still have from 2 months earlier.

I should've gotten rid of it. I should've done that when I was stronger, before I fell again. I didn't though and now here I am.

I cut my hip a few times. I don't want to go over my scars so I do a few on my upper thigh as well. I smile as the blade slices my skin. It feels good.

I put antibiotic cream on it and place bandaids over top of my fresh cuts. I look at the bandaids and only then do I realize what I've done.

I scream and cry until I no longer have any tears left.

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I apologize for the really short chapter but it's my third tonight.

Now you all know a bit more into how much Bella is hurting and struggling. Here's to hoping the Cimorelli girls can help her. Maybe they can, maybe they can't. I don't even know yet, haha.

It's 1:30 am so no more chapters today. I'll write and publish more tomorrow probably.

Love you all!

~Courtney