fuck,
now im just so very exhausted from even being alive and it's been so hard to resist the urges and I'm so sick of everything and its just so stupid to lose someone you relied on so much and it just hurts so much.
It's like a feeling that there's a fucking black hole inside your chest and it makes you feel so weak and so fucking worthless and you just want to disappear and it's like everything is collapsing on you and you want keep destroying and torturing yourself.
I just want to go already.
