I hate (love) you Tom x sucidal Tord

Regret Chapter one

Tord P.O.V.

    "I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND!" I heared Tom say, as he shot his harpoon at my robot. I was on the ground, my whole body hurt. I was holding on to my arm because my arm hurt the most. I began to sob, I realized I had destroyed everything I was given. I HAD ALMOST KILLED THE PERSON I LOVED THE MOST!!! And all because I had wanted to rule the world, just because I wanted some stupid power...

   "I'M SORRY!" I woke up in sweat, and then I realized It was a dream. I was laying on cold hard floor in a alley. I sighed, I had left the Red Army after what had happened. But I knew this is what I desevered, I didn't derseve anything, I didn't deserve pau or pat. I didn't desevre anything! I began to shiver and shake because I was cold. Then thats when the thoughts came back. I hated these thoughts! But I deserve this!
        You're such a fuck up! " I know..." You're so ungreatful, hah you think Tom loves you AFTER what you did! Hah pathetic! "Go away!" Never! TOM HATES YOU, YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT!? YOU SHOULD JUST KILL YOURSELF, NO ONE WILL EVER MISS YOU! IN FACT, EVERY ONE WOULD BE SO HAPPY IF YOU WERE GONE.

YOU'RE WORTHLESS,

PATHETIC,

STUPID,

UNGREATFUL,

A CRYBABY,

A FUCK UP,

JUST DIE ALREADY!

   I began crying, but those thoughts were right. No one would miss me. I should just die. I got my razor out & began to lift my sleeve. I started to cry even more. This was my first time ever cutting myself. I pressed the razor to my skin and cut myself. I began repeating what the thoughts had told me. Each cut equaled one terrible word. Worthless, pathetic, stupid, ungreatful, crybaby, a fuck up. I wished I could cut both my arms but one was my fake arm. When I was done I wasn't satisfied, so I looked in my pockets looking for something. When I had found what I was looking for, it was a lighter. I sat there a moment looking at the flame coming from the lighter. I pulled the lighter close to my arm until it touched my arm. I covered my mouth to stop myself screaming in pain. But when I took the lighter away I saw that I had burned myself, I continued making more burns until I was satisfied. I put my razor and my lighter in my pocket, until I finally cried myself to sleep...
    
    Ahh! This is the first time I have ever written a book! I am so sorry if there are any grammar errors. Oh and also I will be posting two chapters every weekend mabye even three chapters every weekend. Idk. Anyways I hoped you enjoyed this chapter! Bye ^-^