fading away is not painless

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It hurts.
When the person you try so hard to impress
Doesn't even notice you.
You begin to wonder,
Are you even worth noting.
You remembered.
Your hair is scanty,
Your face is full of blemishes
Your body is bloated,
You're not fair skinned,
Your feet is too big,
Your eyes are too small,
You have nothing special,
Nothing unique,
You're you.
But your emotions don't let you be.
You go on a diet.
You exercise.
The world around you is blurring.
You feel dizzy.
You feel weak.
The gnawing pain in your stomach is killing you.
You're fading.
You turn to him,
Maybe you look good enough to be noticed now.
His attention; it's not on you.
It's on someone else's. The perfect girl.
Your heart crashes, but not completely.
Because you expected it.
You expected everything.
You walk away.
Slowly fading from existence.
Slowly fading from everyone's memory.

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