Sacred Heart

Chapter 10

Taylor's POV:
I've been trying really hard to forget about Harry but I just can't. Ed isn't really helping, I mean I know he's trying but he constantly asks me if I've talked to Harry again. Which I haven't. I know I can't because I'll just get pulled back to him and I don't want to. I love Ed, I really do but something inside me keeps telling me I love Harry too. Maybe he has changed. Or maybe I'm just being blind.

"Hey." Ed says from behind me. He wraps his arms around my waist and rests his head on my shoulder.

"Hey." I say, taking his hands in mine.

"How'd the interview go?" I ask.

"Good, I think." He says after kissing my cheek. He lets go of me and flops onto the couch.

"Tired?" I ask while sitting on his lap.

"Yeah, it's been a long day." He says.

"Wanna watch a movie?" He asks.

"Can we just talk?" I ask quietly.

"Sure." He says. "About what?"

"Anything." I reply. He smiles.

"Okay." I move next to him and he takes my hand in his.

"So how's your album coming along?" He asks quietly.

"It's almost done, we're just working on the finishing touches." I reply.

"I actually have something to tell you Taylor..." He says softly. I snap my head in his direction, raising an eyebrow.

"I um, I'm leaving to go on tour tomorrow." He mutters, his eyes drift around the room. I open my mouth to tell him that I know, or that I knew it was coming, but instead I just burst into tears. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into him.

"I'm sorry." He whispers.

"Do you have to?" I choke out, even though I'm already sure of the answer. He nods.

"I tried to put it off but Stu wouldn't let me. We've already booked everything." I nod, trying to calm myself.

"I know." I whisper.
He rubs my back softly as I take shaky breaths. I can't believe I'm crying, but I just can't stop. I'm afraid. I'm afraid to be left alone. I'm afraid of what I have become. A pathetic, scared, broken girl who can't even handle living by herself anymore.

"It's gonna be alright love. I'll call you everyday, and we can always video chat too." He whispers.

"Promise you'll call every day?" I mutter. I feel him nod.

"I promise." He pulls back and wipes the tears from under my eyes with his thumb.

"Okay?" He asks.

"Okay." I say back, cracking a small smile. He takes my hand in his and kisses it softly before intertwining our fingers.

"Wanna watch a movie now?" I ask.

"Love actually?" He replies, and I nod. He gets up to put the disk in the DVD player then returns to the couch with me. Throughout the movie I realize that I haven't paying much attention to it. I've been lost in my own thoughts, which seems to happen a lot lately. I don't think Ed's watching either because every time I glance at him he's either looking at me, or at the ground. After watching Love Actually, we remain sat on the couch for the night watching various tv shows and talking. As I gets later and later I feel myself getting tired. I move over so I'm closer to Ed and I rest my head on his chest, and before I know it we both fall asleep.

"Taylor..." I hear a quiet voice call.

"Taylor..." I flutter my eyes open and let them adjust for a moment before I see Ed hovering over me.

"What?" I mumble. He looks down for a moment before coming to sit down next to me.

"I have to leave soon." He whispers. I nod. I try to hold myself together, I try to be strong but I break down again, tears pooling in my eyes. Ed doesn't say anything, he just pulls me into him holds me tightly.

"I'm gonna miss you so much." I choke out through my sobs.

"I'm gonna miss you too Taylor." I'm about to pull away and try to pull myself together, until I feel a tear drop on my shoulder.

"I love you." I say.

"I love you too." He whispers, "but I have to go." I nod and pull away.
He takes my hand and goes to gather his suitcases, and everything else he needs.

"I'll call you tonight." He says.

"Okay." I say in a voice barely audible. But he hears me. He pulls me into him and kisses me gently before he walks out the door. I sigh, I miss him already.