Wanting Until You

Chapter 1

WARNING! (CLICHE ALERT)
THIS MAY OR MAY NOT BE CRINGE WORTHY, MAINLY CAUSED BY THIS BEING MY FIRST TIME...
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"No-I mean I've never hooked up with anyone." I say, nervously, to my best friend, Lili.

We've been friends since kindergarten. Cliché, I know; but it's true. We're hanging out in a bar that was ironically near her job, where she practices medicine.

"I still can't believe you haven't found anyone yet. Your not getting any younger, you know. Your almost 20." She complains to me, whilst I roll my eyes.

"Well at least I'm not getting married next week, and pregnant for 9 months!" I say, very bitterly. "-and not to mention, you literally dropped out of college 3 days ago!"

I can see her face flush with red. She quickly turns away from me and sighs. She've been with Isabell for only a year and is already ready to throw her whole life away. At this time we should be having fun, not worrying about a living thing that pukes and poops all the time.

"Look, all I'm saying is-your young, and you don't even know what love is yet." I explain, trying to find her eyes, but failing miserably.

"GOD! You sound like my dad. How would you know how I feel, anyways? You've never been with ANYONE, and I know that I love Bell. I would sacrifice everything for her to be happy. Not to mention, I'm bringing a life to this world. I should be happy. Not caring what you think of my choices all the damn time!" She gets up, abruptly, then leaves the bar without another word.

I cover my face with my palms. The coldness of them brings chills down my spine, making me shiver. I look up and take a huge gulp of the deep dark red wine sitting patiently in front of me. I get up and walk over to the main counter to pay for my drink. I see that the bartender is busy filling out some paperwork, so I wait patiently until he's finished. In the meantime, I try texting Lili that I'm sorry, but she doesn't respond.

I do regret what I said to her, she really doesn't need criticism from me, not at a time like this.

I lift my head up from my phone to see that the bartender was staring at me.

I squint, then I slowly walk towards him. Suddenly, I realize who he is. It takes me a few seconds to recognize him, but I remember him as my therapist years ago; he drove me out of my depression.

"Hey.." I say, almost in a whisper.

"Hey. Your Ms.Tayler, right?" He asks, smiling really wide.

Wow, his teeth is so white!

"Y-yeah. Except, it's Ms.Drew now."

"Oh, I see you finally got adopted. I'm really happy for you." He says, smiling wide again. I can't help but smile back.

"Thank you, uh-ghh-"

"Let me guess, you forgot my name." He says, while chuckling.

I can feel myself blush so hard, my face starts to burn from the heat swelling up.

"Uh-yeah." I say, feeling very embarrassed.

"Charles. It's okay, people do tend to forget my name. Nothing personal." He explains. "I'm guessing your here to pay for that wine?" He says, as he points at the empty glass sitting alone on the bar counter.

I look down at my fingers. I've never been this nervous in my life, why the hell am I choking now? I look back up at him to see a shy smirk form from the creases of his lips.

I quickly take out my wallet and hand him a ten. But just when our hands were touching, everything around me was slow, as if time just stopped. For a split second, while our hands were still linked together, we locked eyes. It was strange, but it made me feel eccentric. I felt the adrenaline fill up my body, like filling up a cup with tea.

Then...the moment ended and we broke eye contact.

"Thank you, let me..uh-get you your change." He says, surprisingly stuttering. It's kinda cute.

"No need. Keep the change." I say as I literally run out of the bar.

The emotions that I'm feeling right now are terrifying! I've never felt or even acted that way towards any guy, not sober at least. I really need to go home and get some rest. I have a test next week and I really want to ace it. I can't start thinking about guys and "feelings". I have my own future to worry about.

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☽ THE NEXT DAY ☽

I wake up from the loud bright sun beaming at me through the blinds from my window. I scrunch up my face and roll out of bed...literally.

I walk into my bathroom, stripping off all the clothing left on my small petite figure. I take a gracious step into the shower. The water is blistering cold at first, but soon after it creates a warm sensation on my body.

I close my eyes, turn around, and lean my head back into the perfectly warm soothing water. I run my now wet hands through my hair.

Minutes Later

I dry off, cover my skin with comfortable clothing and end up calling Lili. She doesn't answer, as I expected.

I decide to call my sister, Jo, instead. If I had to (not saying it would ever happen), pick one sibling I like the most, its Jo. She may be the twin sister of a total drama queen, but she is the most original and understanding being I've ever met; and that's why I tell her about everything.

"Hey, Jo." I say finally, when she picks up. "I need to talk to you about something. It's important-I think." I waited for her to answer.

"Ok, I'm on my way now." She responds, "..but this better be good, I need to pick up Kylin from basketball practice at 7."

I tell her that she'll make it on time to reassure her, then hung up. I needed her help, because one thing I do know is that when I gave Charles the money for the wine yesterday, he carefully slipped in a note into the palm of my hand. It had a phone number written carelessly on the front of the small piece of paper. Behind it was a quick drawing of some hearts and a small glass of red wine. At least I think it's red wine.

Just thinking about it makes me want to smile, almost as big as his.