Phoenix: The Battle Against Myself

Taking Notes

I woke up with a bad dream
That showed me that my brother and mother would sacrifice themselves for me

Every single day, I look like I'm alright
But in reality, I'm stressing about everybody all day, all night

I just woke up crying my heart out
I can't believe that this is how my day starts out

It's crazy because I think about everything that exists
The people, the plants, the animals, everything that lives

I'm just a boy trying to make a way to become a man
No demands
Are being made, because I have too much respect for you and
I will stand

For the right,
Not the wrong
But people don't have that thought in sight,
So I want to progress in the bringing of this message in these songs

People are aggravating
I guess I have to do a little bit of annotating
Some people told me that I've been ranting and raving,
But I'm not stopping because they keep on yelling and stating
That they have money, that they are playing the newest games and
They just want to see you beneath their feet while you're face deep in the pavement
They are jut craving
The need to rub it in, waiting for you to start hating
I don't know why people love to see you suffer like you are going to tolerate it
You want to see a show, you're seeing it, now you're looking in amazement
The time of simplicity has faded
We've entered a generation of craziness that hasn't been contemplated
The questions have been there, to which the answers have changed, and
We have waited

Long enough
I may not be athletic or buff,

But I can rhyme and ride
Until the pain comes and subsides
I'm territorial, so I hunt other predators in sight
I'm here to keep the darkness from coming into light
The way I write
Expresses my feelings in the way that I
Usually can't, so I put my heart and soul into the words with pride

I'm getting stronger every time I rise from the beat down
This battle is heating up, can someone turn the heat down?
I've been pretty hungry, is it time for me to eat now?

I have to keep track of everything from the first look to a diagnose
The only way that I can do that is if I start taking notes

I miss the old stuff
I used to be able to think and speak without getting choked up
I had a clear voice when I spoke up
I didn't feel like my chest took a hole punch
Now that I'm just a few years older, I'm so done

With people not being able to help themselves
Said this in the past few songs, but taking notes is how I remind myself

We live under the stars and the moon when the sun is down
We live under the blue skies and the sun when the moon is bound

We have trees and animals that live with us
We live on Earth with them, too, and we just kill them so we can fill it up
Gotta stop this, you better finish up

Because life isn't fair
To the ladies with the brilliance and pretty hair
And the men who work until their bodies break down, while no one cares

Life is taken as a joke
It isn't a joke when you're broke

It isn't funny when you don't have a home
And you have to work your bones

It isn't a joke if you don't have clothes
On your back to suffice when you are on the dangerous road

And you have to go
On this journey alone

People starting fires and stealing from your local banks
When people save you nowadays, you don't even give a "thanks"

Always in someone else's business
Let's go back a few years according to verbal and the written

People don't know how to write
Or read
Illiterate because you can't read the lines
Or even in between

It's crazy how people can make so many mistakes,
And we can say sorry, but we continue until people's hearts break

And then we blame other people
For own mistakes, but the people around could be watching like an eagle

And tell us so quick
That we'll attempt to deny it, but deep down, we'll think,
"Am I screwing up? Maybe this is
The wrong thing

To do?"
I represent everything I stand for with honor
And if you're one of the good people who feel like underdogs, I represent you
If this was Detroit, I guess you can call me Connor

Because I'm just too nice and people love to put me down
They love the sounds
Of me huffing and puffing as I frown
And struggling to get around

Everything bothers me because all people are is petty with a vengance
And they shun me, all I want to be is accepted
As equal, I passionately tell you that with every sentence
Up until I grow breathless
It's chilly, I hope you won't catch this
Cold that I have as a result of having been sick

It's okay, though
Every day, I'm taking notes

I'm just adding a verse to the Earth's story
While the rich are basking in the money, the fame, and the glory
I'm not about to sit here and let the world do my work for me

I'm old enough
I'm not totally buff,

But I'm a person like you
So don't just except anyone to fight you
Because no one's going to give you want for free, but they will try you

For your money
It's not funny
When you're broke, honey

Just don't sell yourself or do anything to harm yourself
There is always someone who will listen and help

There will always be hating, you know
Just be ready for those times, but those moments are important for taking notes