Phoenix: The Battle Against Myself

Born Into This World

When I was born into this world,
I was born to do something that other people can't
I don't need money, cars, friends, or girls
To achieve my dreams, even though I want those things to cherish, those are just my ideal plans

When I was born into this world, my mom prayed that I would grow up to be a smart man
A good man is what I am, but this world has me feeling like I'm part man
But people never understand my pumping heart, man

I let people hold me back because people hurt me
Now that pain serves me
As a force that I channel all of my worries
Into something that isn't dirty
But no matter how I good I prove to be, I feel like something has cursed me
It seems like no one deserves me
Or the goodness that I try to spread, I hope you heard
People try to irk my nerves to turn me
Into something that I don't want to be, and disturb me
When innocent people get attacked, I feel like it concerns me

I'm not a ignorant person on the street
I'm a civilized teen with certain tastes
The old-fashioned clothes, classic music, and old school hip-hop beats
And staying in school until I'm 18, I can wait

It hurts to know that most of the outside world just appreciate fights, sex, and war
Along with many other things, but that's not what I'm here for
Anyone who wants to speak, you have the floor
For any woman who has ever walked past me, I've opened the door

I'm like a Disney prince, except that this isn't Disney
If you hit me,

I'll hit back harder
For starters,
If we keep hitting each other, my heart hurts

I'm not a savior or some special protector, but I'll do what I can to protect the weak
Even if it takes my bones, because do I want anyone to do it to me?
No I don't, and that's why I always speak
On this topic, and it's based off what I see
Every time I walk out my house door, and follow my every day routine

When I walk out the house, I kiss my mom on the cheek and say, "I love you, Mom, I'll be back around 4:00 and I won't back late!"
She replies, "All right! You and your twin brother better come back safe!"
And I say, "I promise we'll back in one piece, meanwhile, try to stay awake
Try to do something fun we're away
I understand how you wait

6 1/2 hours of school, and you're always worried
But Mom, I'm not going to let anyone hurt me

And I'm not going to let anyone hurt him
I'm not going to let anyone turn him
Into a rage monster and coerce him

We have each other's backs beyond the end of our lives
And I solemnly swear to you that we shall not carry any secrets away from each other, and we not tell one another any lies"

I just worry about the well-being of my family
I worry so much that some people might say I've lost my sanity
It's better than me showing off how I look like many people with vanity

Let me end the 1st verse
Because I've had so many thoughts about the universe

And the line between hate and love
Since I was

When I was born into this world,
I was born to do something that other people can't
I don't need money, cars, friends, or girls
To achieve my dreams, even though I want those things to cherish, those are just my ideal plans

When I was born into this world, my mom prayed that I would grow up to be a smart man
A good man is what I am, but this world has me feeling like I'm part man
But people never understand my pumping heart, man

Back at it again because I have a voice to use
When I need to stir some stew

Now I'm just thinking about my fate
Because of the people I love, my worries have increased as of late

Lethal like venom
But I'm feeling and looking blue like denim

It's hard, but I keep moving
Because if I stop, I'm losing
But I'm a sore loser, so I have to keep cruising
Before the world starts bruising
My body, and I've proven
That this is true, I hope that you tune in
To my choosing
Of these words as I'm fluent
In English; I'm bleeding, I'm oozing
Blood from the heart that the horrible people that used it
I'll try to get through it
Tomorrow is a new day, I can do it
What am I doing?
I'm just writing poetry until I fall asleep and the next day, I redo it
How do I keep up the illusion
Of me being supremely happy while I'm fooling
Myself until I'm drooling
After accusing
Myself of intruding
The people who are consuming
While doing
The business of the people
Who are producing
The idiotic idea that it's cool and
Okay to keep assuming
What's going on through my head? I don't know until I'm finished removing

The good part of me
And blood running through my arteries
Pardon me,
It's hard to keep going when people can work or love or help your fellow flesh and spirits in harmony
This is remarkably
Bad luck in its finest like the lottery
When 1 out of a million chances, and it bothers me
That my timing is right, but the aim is off like I'm a beginner in archery

Growing up, I always had a vision
That there would be no competition
Between low people and politicians

I have a dream
That we will one day hear the screams
Of joy between
Blacks, whites, men, women, and people of any color or creed

That we will be able work without discrimination
And be patient
When certain situations

Call for it
I stack all these worries on my chest and head like it's storage

Have to end this chapter
Before I take in food like a raptor