mother,
can i tell you a secret?
i don't sleep so well anymore;
i've gone back to using my left hand.
the one i broke last year.my right hand is forever ruined,
wrapped in ruby tears and lilac bruises,
daffodil stem cuts;i make it seem beautiful,
don't i?i broke my left hand
because i was so desperate to prove myselfi wanted to be the core musician
i didn't want to die like john lennon.some bitter nights i still look you up,
although i know youkept everything private.
even though
i was an undeniably sober child
i was still drunk on you.you said i had skin of icelandic snow-
so cold,if only you had known.
i will never warm up for you.
i wanted to reach down my throat
and clean up my rib cagejust so i could create a home in me for you;
i want to thank you for assembling me.
you are a golden curled angel
with a soft raspberry pink tongue and blackberry nails.
you will forever be the hollow in my bed
and my weak bones will never be enough to fill the dent.
YOU ARE READING
horribly beautiful ✔️
Poetrypeople write about things that do not happen. they will romanticize this world in hopes of filling themselves up. they write like their words are food. but i have always written to empty myself completely. i will romanticize feeling nothing. jun...