The fire in my heart is the resentment towards people
Who never treat each other like equalsMy mom always tell me that you can't defend everyone
But I'm gonna do what it takes to make that nothing else bad will happen to anyoneI don't care what anyone else says, I'm gonna try to save the defenseless
I want to be friends with the friendless
I want to give some air to the breathlessI want to be able to help the reckless
Hone their rash side, so they won't be infected
By the people who don't show compassion or affection
At the beginning of every word to the end of every sentence,
I have a sincere tone, and I've always been selflessI need you all to know how I feel about the world's issues
When I see the crime of people hurting others, I wish toGo out and fix it so we can leave in peace
And quiet, coexist in harmonySo when I go out of my door to the school that I loathe with a passion,
I don't feel good for reasons that I can not fathom
Until I go in the school, and I get this reaction
That my dreams are just imagined
Nothing good really ever happensIt's just a never-ending cycle of bad luck around my way
Every day, I just wish it was Friday
So the current days won't feel like they're upside down and sideways
I feel like it's Groundhog's Day until I do something the right way
I'm freezing up constantly like I'm the manifestation of the Ice Age
I'm a heavy handed person, but my heart compels me to be lightweightIt's like this
As I type this,
I'm trying to provide this
Message, but when most people see this, they will deny thisTruth that I speak
The things that I see
Things happen so quick, it's like watching a John Wick fight scene
It's like going to sightsee
For the first time, I don't have to worry about treading lightly
When people get defensive about the truth, I go about it politely
I walk away, and thank God Almighty
That I didn't respond and get feisty
Because I'd have slipped much more than slightly
And this person would invite me
To a fist duel, so he would want to fight meBut I know how avoid these situations
When people start in a manner that is brazen,
I completely do the opposite of the standard expectations
I have a lot of tolerance and patience
Just enough to wait after an hour of talking so I can join in on the conversationIt sucks because I care so much about other people that I constantly think about every person that I see
But half of those people don't even like meI've never been able to make my own friends
Bad luck is near me, where is the black cat?
Sometimes, I just have to fix loose ends
And on the bottle goes the capIt's not fair because I think about every type of person other than myself
And then the feeling of guilt and sympathy comes, because the adults won't let me helpThey say fend for yourself, survival of the fittest
If people can't defend themselves and they keep getting skittish
What makes it worse is that I'm a witness
I could stop it, but I don't want to be physically dismissedUnlike most people, I have a heart
And to everyone I interact with, I give a part
Of it to startOff a new friendship
Everywhere I go, I don't need a critic
Because of my methods to my madness, it shouldn't be anywhere in your interests
Ever since I've been 5th grade, I feel like I have way too many limitsIt's kind of hard when so many boundaries are set there waiting for you to cross them
Just so you can screw up and see the corruption & flaws, it seems like the good people are falling
Like it's autumn
Next thing I know, I'll hit rock bottom
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Phoenix: The Battle Against Myself
PoetryThis poem is another story, but it's about me trying to get out of my current depression. I'm going to be honest, I've been depressed since I've been in the lower area of school (5th grade, 10 years old). It's hard to be an optimistic person when yo...