My Boss' Fling and First Love (On Edit)

Chapter 27 - First Quarrel?

Jai's POV

I AM FROWNING while removing Drake's necktie. I could feel him staring at me but I don't want to look up and meet his stare. Alam kong kagaya ko ay nakakunot din ang noo niya. Tumalikod ako matapos kong matanggal na din sa wakas ang necktie niyang ako din madalas ang nagkakabit.

I sighed when he quickly snatch my hand. Humarap ako sa kanya at hindi nagpakita ng kahit na anong ekspresyon. I want him to explain why he just let Kerra kissed him on his cheek. Hindi niya ba alam na ang lakas na ng epekto no'n sa 'kin? Does he really care about what I feel?

Oh hell, hindi ko ata gusto kung paano ako nag-iisip dulot ng selos. It leads me to negatives that ain't good.

"Are you angry?" seryosong tanong niya. I just rolled my eyes and pulled my hand out from his grip. I heard him chuckled that's why I irritably looked at him.

"C'mon Jai, ikaw pa ngayon ang galit? Pagkatapos mong hayaang hawakan at halikan ng lalaking 'yon ang kamay mo? Ikaw pa ngayon ang magagalit?" he sarcastically said making me a little bit hurt. What does he mean? Siya lang ang may karapatang magalit, gano'n?

"Don't act like I don't have the right to be this angry, Drake. Kamay lang ang hinayaan kong halikan sa 'kin ni Mart. Ikaw? You even let Kerra to kiss you!"

"On my cheek, Jai. She kissed me at my d.mn left cheek only!" Drake shouted too. Bakas ang galit sa mga mata niya at alam kong gan'on din ang ipinapakita ng mga mata ko. I won't let him see that I'm hurting. Hanggang ngayon pala, emosyonal pa rin ako, d.mn it.

"Only? Lang? Sa tingin mo, para sa'kin, lang, lang 'yon? To tell you honestly, that only thing for you shocked me because you acted like I'm not there!–"

"What more to me? F.ck it. I'm angry! D.mn angry! Ni hindi ka man nakipagkamay kay Kerra pero bakit kay Martin, nakipagkamay ka?!"

A tear escape my eyes making the both of us stopped. Is this really a big deal? Inis kong agad na pinunasan ang mata ko saka ibinalik ang tingin kay Drake. His eyes were now empty and I don't want to think about what he was thinking.

"You know what, Drake? We're both immature to fight this way just because of jealousy. We'll not fight like this if we keep reminding ourselves that we love each other, right? And that love, requires trust. You know that, don't you? Huwag mong sabihing hindi pa ata sapat ang tiwala na meron tayo sa isa't isa?"

Pinilit ko ang sariling ko na h'wag magpakita ng kahit anong bakas ng kahinaan. Mabagal akong naglakad at nilagpasan siya. I want to rest, this day is very tiring for both of us.

"Where are you going?" tanong niya na halos hindi ko na din marinig. His back is still facing me and when he turned to face me, I quickly looked away.

"Gusto ko nang magpahinga. Sa dati ko munang kwarto ako matutulog. I think that we need to be alone somehow, even only for this night."

Hindi ko na siya hinintay pang magsalita uli at naglakad na palabas. When I finally closed the door, tears started to roll, down my cheeks again. Hindi ko inakalang maiiyak na naman pala ako ng dahil sa sakit.

I'm wiping my tears while making my way back at my room. Namiss ko ding matulog doon kahit papaano, siguro kailangan din talaga naming makapag-isip kahit papaano ni Drake mag-isa.

My heart breaks for what he have said earlier. Iniisip niya bang sa lalaki ko lang gustong makipagkamay?

I sighed. I knew it, jealousy will never be good. It can be the winner between me and Drake that will make us lose this relationship that we're just starting to build again, and if we don't want that to happen, we must at least know on how to gain and give trust.

SILENCE FILLED the dining area. Kung pwede ko lang ngang dalhin dito ang speaker ko at magpatugtog para maging masigla kahit papaano, ginawa ko na. Mukhang atang isa 'to sa pinakaayaw kong umaga. I feel alone even he's just sitting across me.

I could feel that my eyes are so heavy because of crying. Halos hindi na din ako nakatulog kaya siguro ngayong 10 AM pa lang ako nagising. Mukhang nasanay na talaga akong katabi siya.

I carefully get a piece of green apple, avoiding to make noise. Kinagat ko 'yon kahit na may hinahanap na kulang ang lalamunan ko. I don't want to cause any noise even I hate this silent atmosphere between us, so I better not stand up to get some vinegar and sugar.

Napatingin ako kay Drake sunod sa platitong inusog niya palapit sa plato ko. It was what my tongue was finding. Napangiti ako at nagbalak sanang magpasalamat sa kanya, but he stood up making my smile disappear.

Napahinga na lang ako nang malalim saka sinawsaw ang green apple sa suka. I can still be happy with this fruit and condiments anyway. Also, knowing that Drake still care for me, already is enough to make my morning good.

"Drake," I called him as soon as he's done washing his hands.

Tumingin siya sa 'kin dahilan para mapansin ko na medyo nangitim din ang ilalim ng mga mata niya. My heart melted thinking that he have not slept well too, without me by his side.

"Good morning," I said like I was apologizing to him. Siya madalas ang bumabati sa 'kin no'n, pero mukhang hindi niya ata gagawin 'yon ngayon. I ignore the sudden hit in my heart as I remember that I haven't received a morning greet from him, even a morning kiss on my forehead.

"Good morning," mahinang sabi niya at binigyan ako ng tipid na ngiti.

He walked out from the kitchen, leaving me alone. I sighed, this is all my fault. If only I could stop myself from being jealous. Ayokong magtagal 'to at hangga't maaari ay gusto kong magkaayos na kami, pero paano ko gagawin 'yon nang mag-isa?

After eating 3 more slices of the green apple, I decided to go outside the kitchen. Nagpasuyo ako sa ibang maids na linisin ang kusina. I want to make an apology gift, or more like, an apology food for Drake.

Pinasadahan ko muna ng tingin ang kotse ni Drake na lumabas na ng mansion. He went for work without informing me. I sighed, tearing the sadness that was slowly covering my heart.

Bumalik ako sa kusina at inihanda ang lahat ng ingredients na kakailanganin para sa cupcakes na gagawin ko. I tie my hair into a bun and wore an apron with a floral design. Mahina akong natawa nang halos hindi 'yon umabot sa ibabaw ng tuhod ko dahil sa tiyan ko.

I caressed my large tummy and let out a smile. Kailangang magkaayos na kami ng daddy ng anak ko. I started to mix all the ingredients and even the other maids were offering me a help, I politely did not accepted any of it. Gusto kong sarili kong pinaghirapan ang ibibigay kay Drake.

I wipe the sweat that formed at my forehead after finally putting the muffin tray inside the microwave. Napasandal ako sa lamesa at ilang beses pang napabuntong hininga hanggang sa makaramdam na ako ng pagod, but I quickly ignore it and nudge myself to have an energy to wait.

Mukhang kakailanganin ko talagang matulog nang mahimbing mamaya para makabawi sa baby kong sumisipa na naman. Natawa na lang ako at uminom ng fresh milk na kinuha ko sa ref. I sighed when the microwave finally brought out the word ting.

I opened the microwave carefully to get the tray inside. The air coming from it was really hot. Saglit kong inunat ang leeg ko na nangalay kakayuko at ang kamay kong halos nanginginig na. I trace the icing into a beautiful designs and shapes. I smiled as soon as I'm done designing the last cupcake I've baked.

Kumuha ako ng anim na piraso at inilagay 'yon sa loob ng tupperware. Bago lumabas ay tinawag ko ang ibang maids para ibigay ang ibang cupcake na binake ko para sa kanila. They were really thankful and complementing what I've first baked for them.

Nagpasalamat din ako pabalik at umakyat na sa kwarto namin ni Drake dala ang tupperware. I put it inside of the mini refrigerator and decided to take a bath and change my clothes. Napatingin ako sa orasan, it was already 4 PM. Ang tagal ko din palang nasa kusina.

I put out my phone and nervously called Drake. I sighed in relief when it became answered after a very long ring.

"Hello?"

I became stunned, letting my brain absorbed what my ear just heard. Kailan pa naging boses babae ang boses ni Drake?