My Boss' Fling and First Love (On Edit)

Chapter 18 - A Tears In The Rain

Jai's POV

I PICKED my violet v-neck sando, blue highwaist pants and blue blazer to wear. Kinuha ko ang backpack ko matapos ilagay doon ang lahat ng kailangan ko para mag-apply ng trabaho. I tied my hair to a ponytail before living my room.

I took a step down the stairs carefully and get a sandwich to eat. Saglit akong kumagat at isinara ang pinto ng apartment ko. I'm sure this day won't be easy. I heaved a sigh as I make my way out the building.

Pumara ako ng taxi at agad na sumakay roon. It's already 10:31 in the morning and I must expect that finding a job would be really hard this time. Im always waking up this late and it is surely because of my pregnancy.

Bumaba ako at tumawid sa pedestrian lane. Gamit ang envelope na hawak ko ay pinantakip ko iyon sa mainit na sinag ng araw. Pinunasan ko ang pawis na namuo sa noo ko matapos kong makapasok sa isang building.

I'm glad that the guards aren't that super strict here. Inilibot ko ang tingin ko at nagpasyang lumapit sa babaeng nasa front desk.

"Uh, excuse me. Mind if I'll ask you if there's any vacancies of work here—"

"Sorry, we're full. Yes, hello ma'am, how may I help you?" she said without looking directly at my eyes. I rolled my eyes, how rude. Nagagawa niyang asikasuhin ang kausap niya sa telepono ngunit hindi ang kasalukuyang kaharapan niya, tsk.

Lumabas ako ng building at muling sumakay pero sa jeep naman ngayon. I must be thrifty. I don't know where to go either where to apply, I'm just letting my feet bring me wherever. I must find a job.

Mahihirapan ako kung wala akong mahahanap na trabaho habang patuloy na lumalaki ang tiyan ko. I want to gave birth in a proper and safe hospital. I want the best for my child.

Kung maaari lang nga ay hindi na muna ako umalis sa mansion ni Drake at nakapag-ipon pa ng mas malaking pera. Pero parang pinayagan ko na ding madurog lalo ang puso ko kung gagawin ko pa ang bagay na 'yon. I must not be stressed, it can affect my baby and I really don't want that to happened.

But hell, I'm starting to be nervous and stressed now. Ilang building na ang napasok at napagtanungan ko at pare-pareho lang ang isinasagot nila.

"Sorry, Ms., but I have nothing to offer you."
"Sayang, cum laude ka pala. Kaso nakuha na lahat ng bakante sa 'min e."
"We'll call you."
"Marami na kaming new employees, kung sanang napaaga ang pag-aapply mo."

I'm a cum laude but that can't even help me to find a decent work. Maybe they are right. Having a medal or being a topnotcher doesn't matter at all, it's still the skill and opportunities.

I sighed and looked at my watch. It's 3 PM now. It's still early in the afternoon but the sky is turning dark. Mukhang uulan. Siguro ay naging target na naman ako ng salitang malas.

Nagdesisyon akong tumungo sa pinakamalapit na fast food chain. I want to eat a lot of healthy food for my baby's health, but I didn't brought an extra money. Kung marami ang kakainin ko ngayon, wala akong matitirang pamasahe pauwi.

Eating only a burger and a sundae is really enough for me if I doesn't have a child, but I have a child to take care now and I know that it won't make us full. Alam ko ding hindi gan'on kasuntansiya ang napili kong kainin pero kumukulo na talaga ang tiyan ko at wala rin akong kalakihang pera.

I stood as I chewed the last part of my burger but in luck, I accidentally bumped into someone.

"Sorry! I didn't mean to," sambit ko kahit na ako naman ang natapunan. Hell, this juice is too cold for my skin. The aircon here makes it cold even more.

Minadali kong kunin ang panyo ko at napatingin sa babaeng aksidenteng nakatapon sa akin nung juice, may kailangan pa ba siya? Bakit hindi pa siya umaalis?

When our eyes met, she looked away from me quickly. I frowned, that's weird. Mukhang may gusto pa siyang sabihin pero nagdadalawang-isip siya.

"S-sorry. Kailangan ko ng pera, n-napag-utusan lang," she muttered and leave me confused.

Wala sa sarili akong napatingin sa front door. I could feel the fear slowly covering me. It was Amixel, she's smirking. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko at nagdesisyong hayaan na lang uli siya at palagpasin ang nangyari.

Did I change? Nasaan na ang tapang ko? Bakit napalitan na ata 'yon ng takot at panghihina ngayon?

I inhaled and exhaled slowly. I know that there's only one answer for those questions.

Maybe yes, I wanted to at least change myself. I don't want to fight back to someone who I know is really dangerous. For my child's sake, lalayo muna ako sa gulo.

Isinuot ko ang backpack ko at siniguro munang wala na si Amixel sa labas. I sighed in relief, she's not there anymore. Uuwi na muna siguro ako, seeing Amixel makes me feel unrelaxed and afraid by my surroundings.

Nakaramdam ako ng tubig na pumatak sa braso ko pagkalabas. Nasundan ng isang patak at ng isa pa. I looked up and the rain falls. I stared at the sky blanky. Sisilong ba ako o hahayaang mabasa na lang lalo ang sarili ko?

I closed my eyes, mukhang ang pangalawa ang napili ko. Ngayon lang uli gumaan nang ganito ang pakiramdam ko. A smile formed in my lips. I opened my eyes when a tear escaped in it.

I miss him. I've been missing Drake, always.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko at hinawakan ang tiyan ko. I whispered sorry for my baby for not staying inside and letting us to be this wet. I just missed this feeling, it feels so good, so light, like the rain was comforting me.

I decided to walk to find a vehicle to ride with. Hindi na sapat ang perang naitira ko para makapagtaxi pa 'ko. Saktong pangjeep na lang 'to, kailangan ko pang pumunta sa terminal ng jeep para makasakay. And I have no choice but to walk too long to be there from here.

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko kahit na patuloy pa rin naman akong nababasa dahil sa ulan. Bakit ba ngayon ko lang napagtanto na pwede nga pala akong magkasakit sa ginagawa kong 'to?

Patuloy lang ako sa paglalakad at hindi pinansin ang mga matang sumusulyap sa'kin. They're maybe wondering why I'm not running to go find a shelter or why I'm letting raindrops to continue pouring at my body. I don't know, I just want to reach the terminal.

Nagpasya akong dumiretso na lang sa shortcut kung saan walang masyadong dumadaan. It's a small tunnel and its light were limited, making it look scary and unsafe for a moment.

Tanging tunog lang ng bawat hakbang ko sa tubig at huminang tunog ng ulan dahil sa makapal nitong kisame ang nadidinig ko. Saglit itong sumilong sa 'kin ngunit ang lamig na nararamdaman ko ay hindi nabawasan.

I hugged myself as the cold wind blows. I'm more cold than afraid of walking alone, mindless if there will be someone waiting for me at the end to snatch my things.

A light behind me cleared the dark area in my eyes. Napalingon ako at nagtaka nang malamang kotse 'yon. I was about to walk again but I became stunned.

Sh.t, I might know who owns that car.

Gulat kong ibinalik ang tingin ko doon kasabay ng pagbukas ng pintuan nito sa harapan. My heart jumps with the tears that automatically fell from my eyes again.

Our gaze met as the rain becomes hard even more. Tinatangay ng ulan ang basang buhok naming dalawa. He's so handsome, I really miss him. I just wanted to run and hugged him tight. But I can't, I don't think I have the right to do it.

"I told you, I would find and bring you back in my arms again," he said while walking towards me.

"D-drake," I said with a shivering voice. Mas lalo akong naiyak kasabay ng paglakas pa ng ulan at hangin.

He kissed my forehead and hugged me. Napahagulgol ako at mahigpit siyang niyakap pabalik. I can't believe that I'm seeing and hugging Drake again right this moment. How I love to feel being this safe with him, forever.