99 days without you >> lashton AU

Day 28

Dear ashton,

I haven't been talking to the fans lately. I haven't been talking to anyone for that matter.

I just feel like staying inside and not wanting to do anything with the outside world...I'm just done.

I know I sound like a total dick for shutting people out, I can't help it. I feel like they don't understand...I feel like they don't know me anymore.

but I'll go on twitter and reply to some fans for you ash, I know how much you'd loved that.

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Calum and Michael came over- without permission of course- they brought pizza and drinks. my stomach growled at the sight of food...but I don't want to eat. I can't.

so..I said I didn't feel like eating, they believed me- which was really stupid due to the fact that they don't know what I'm doing to myself. they stayed here for an hour, trying to talk me into apologizing to Ed. can't they see that he's taking your place? ... what dumb fucks they are.

I don't know why I'm still friends with them..fuck what am I saying? ....

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oh forgot to tell you that the fans are relieved that I'm still alive.

I wish I wasn't though.

-Luke

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