Little Too Late? (JenSoo)

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6-A

Jennie's POV

It has been 3 weeks and Jisoo still didn't come back to pester me even once and I cant help but to worry about her. Sometimes it felt like I'm 5 seconds away from hitting the road to her damn house. I badly want to see her and know if she's doing fine.

It has been also 3 weeks since i started to go out with Bobby. Unfortunately, my plan didn't come out the way I wanted and expected it to be. Every time we go out I don't get any feels, it's just like going out with a friend. I didn't feel any sparks no matter how hard i try. Everytime we have dinner i always think what if it was you who's sitting right in front me, touching, laughing, smiling at each other and have some mundane to deep ass shit conversations. All those times i spent with Bobby was just me having some wishful thinking.

I wish it was you Jisoo who I got to spend my time with.

Oh my god! Where the hell are you Kim Jisoooo? How dare you leave me without any words! I hate you! I REALLY NEED TO SEE YOU AND KNOW IF YOU'RE OKAY FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE BEFORE I LOSE MY MIND! I don't freaking care i sound so selfish.

Is this even possible?
Is it possible to miss someone you never had?

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"Earth to Jennie Unniiee! Hello? Am i talking to a wall here?" Lisa said as she wave her hand in front of my pretty face

"Oh I'm sorry, what was that again?" as i tried to give her an apologetic smile

"Nah, I'm too lazy to repeat it." she whined

"What's wrong, unnie? Is this about that girl? Are you still thinking about her?" she asked as she sips her coffee

"Yes" i answered as i stare at my coffee

"And? Say something more unnie. I really want to know how you are feeling. You know I'm your best friend, right? You can trust me and i swear i'll never judge you or something. I always got your back unnie. Whatever makes you happy i will support that. Okay?" she asked and gave me a reassuring smile.

I don't really tell Lisa everything that I feel or whatever's going on in my mind because i don't want to worry her that much.

"Okay" i nodded slowly

"You don't need to bottle up those feelings on your own. I'm here, always here to give you an ears. Okay? Now, spill." she said while patting my shoulder

"I-" i breathed out and continued

"I c-can't take this anymore. I'm going crazy, Lisa. I miss her so much. I want to tell her everything and hug her so tight. I just want to be with her, right now"

"It doesn't matter if she has gotten over me i just want to tell her everything"

"I want her, I want us but I'm so fucking scared, i don't want the people around us to judge and hate us! My parents will be so disappointed. What am i going to do? I'm so tired! I'm starting to lose myself because of this. Help me. Please help me" i sobbed

"Okay, cry that out unnie" she said as she hugged me so tight

"Wh-what am i going to do?" i whispered as i held to her for my dear life

"Unnie, sometimes you need to step back and think about yourself. Does their opinions really matter more than your own happiness? You have every right to be happy and that you are doing that for your own sanity. Unnie, i know she's just giving you time and space to think, and maybe for herself too. She has been waiting long enough, and I'm pretty sure she's tired by now. You don't want to lose her, right? Do you? She's not always there waiting for you, unnie. You have to tell her everything before it's too late. I don't know her personally, heck i don't even know her name but I do know that she loves you so much and she deserves you as much as you deserve her. I just hope you'll make a right decision, unnie." she said as she kissed my forehead

Then silence filled the room

I sat up strait and said

"Right. I want her back and this time I'm not gonna let her go. If the people around me really love me then they should respect my decisions. I'm gonna talk to Bobby later to end everything and I'll find her and tell her I love her so much"

"Hell yeah! That's the spirit unnie!" she said as she hug me again

"It's Jisoo, by the way. Her name is Kim Jisoo. She has a beautiful name, hasn't she?" i said and smile lovingly

"OMG! You're so whipped my dear, unnie"

Well, can't deny that tho.
I'm really whipped for you Kim Jisoo.

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"Hey Jen, what's up?" I called Bobby to meet me at the parking area

"Oh hi! I just want to tell you something"

"Oookay? But why here? I mean, we can talk later in our dinner date"

"Uhm, I'm sorry Bobby but no more dinner dates. We are not really into a relationship, right? So yes, I want to stop this"

"But-But why? I thought you like me?"

"Nope, i never said that"

"No Jen. I know you're just kidding me"

"I'm really sorry Bobby but I love someo-" i wasn't able finish it because he just kiss me. HE FUCKING KISSED ME. I was so shocked that i cannot move.

Suddenly, i heard something that fell on the ground, when i turn to look at it, it was a familiar bouquet of pink roses and i knew right at that moment that it's from Jisoo. Unfortunately, i was right, before i could look at her face she already turned around and run away, I want to run after her but Bobby hold my wrist.

"You like my kiss? Don't you? Let's go talk somewhere and talk ab-" i didn't let him finish. I slapped him so hard.

"How dare you kissed me like that? I don't want to ever see your face again! LEAVE! NOW!" i snapped

I took the bouquet and the letter. I tried to look for Jisoo in the area, i want to explain everything but i was a little too late. I wasn't able to find her.

She's gone, again.

And i don't know if she's coming back.

A/N: Next update in Jisoo's POV 😘