Society/Humanity Pulled the Trigger.

Torture

I think about killing myself five times a day

Mostly at night time when I reminisce all the problems

that have stained my body

I think about how I wouldn't have to feel this constant

pain in my head if I just release my demons

And allow myself to rot six feet underground.

I was stunned though,

Last night my brothers asked me to get a job at their

school

I laughed and said hell no that's not my aspiration

And they said,

But we miss you...

We want to spend more time with you.

But me, I am so desperate to let go

However I realise that I would ruin their whole

entire life line with depression

Broken hearts

And unexplained words

If I be selfish for once

Oh,

This is the only time I crave to be selfish

As it will help me grow with the roots of trees underneath

And allow me to fertilise the grounds and hopefully

bloom pretty flowers

I wish oh I wish

To not have so much responsibility

That I cannot end my sorry life