The Angel Who Went Home

How It All Began

  "Suicidal People...are just angels who want to go home."

      When those ten words came out of his mouth, I knew it was too late to save him. He was already gone.

Gone.

  I didn't want to accept it. The fact that he was too broken to change his mind. He held up the gun to his head and looked me straight in the eyes through the screen on my laptop. 

"Please stay with me." 

  He was asking me to stay on Skype with him while he continued his saddened decision. A tear came down my cheek as I nodded. I should have said something, but my throat was caught and all I could do was look at him in the eyes. 

"I love you."

  That was it. Those were the last words he said in this world. By the time I closed my eyes I heard the gunshot. Sobs came out of my mouth as I opened my eyes to see him off the screen. He was gone and I could have saved him.

------------- 4 months later------------

 "Raven you need to get up or you will be late for your first day of high school!" 

  I opened my eyes and looked around my room. There was a lot of space to it. But it brought memories I didn't want to remember. Reluctantly, I got out of bed and got dressed into a band T-shirt and some jeans, my usual style. I brushed my shoulder length brown hair as I looked in the mirror, looking straight into the reflection of my brown eyes. I changed. I look different, mentally. 

  Alex, my sister walked into the bathroom and started doing her makeup. It was kind of awkward considering I was a bitch to her all summer. Change that, I was just a bitch.

  But she smiled at me. Actually a genuine smile. My heart fluttered in happiness. "Hey." she said. I coughed, "Hi."

 "Guess we have to deal with a new school together."

 "Yeah.."

  Before I could say anything else, She looked at the time, "shit! We are going to be late if we don't leave soon." With that she ran out the bathroom. 

  Sighing, I did my makeup and went to the car. 

  Trees passed.

  Cars swerved.

  People walked.

  And Me? I kept the tears from falling as I looked at the clear hot sky.

  We pulled up to the school and  wave of anxiety washed over me. I was in high school now and I have no friend in this school. Great. I was ushered out of the car and walked to class with my sister, considering we had first hour together.

  

   I walked in and the first thing I saw were the obviously popular kids laughing and talking. I felt sick. My sister was really shy so I decided to step up and take her hand, taking her to a table with a kid with glasses. "Hey." I said to the kid. "I'm Raven and that's my sister, Alex." He smiled "I'm Nick." I like that name, he was probably cool. 

I spoke too soon.

   He started talking nonstop about things that I didn't even mind listening to. This is going to be a long year. 

  A girl with long brown curly hair came up, "hey I'm Hannah!" She was bubbly, that's for sure. "Hi." Was all I said. She looked at me for a good solid minute, making me very weirded out. "We are going to be friends." Hold up! She can't just force me to be her friend?! "Uh.." Before I said anything, my sister joined in and said, "that would be amazing!" Great. They started talking and I was mostly just keeping to myself, like always. I wasn't very social, but so wasn't my sister, however, she was doing pretty good at making friends so far, I'm proud of her.

   ~~~~~~

  The day past and I didn't really make friends. Shocker. But honestly, I just wanted to go home and sleep. Yeah. Sleep.

  I got home and went straight to my room. Which was a shock because I use to always come home and go straight the the skate park. Not anymore. I greeted my cat and laid down next to her, slowly drifting to sleep.

    Akkima. 

  The question wasn't why did he do it. I already knew that. The question was, what did he decide to keep secret? I knew he had a secret he kept to himself. But I will find out what it was. I have to.