Need Me

Im not gay!

Alec's POV
Waking up Sunday morning, I realize that something or someone is holding onto me.
I start to freak out a bit until I realize it's Jace when he says, "what time is it?" In his groggy yet sexy morning voice.
I get out from his hold and look at my phone. "10:00 am" I say.
He groans and gets up.
I grab clothes for the day. "Do you need clothes?" I ask Jace.
"I mean I can wear what I came here in."
Either way, I threw him an oversized hoodie and skinny jeans with rips throughout.
"Thanks." He mutters whilst slipping the items on.
I grab my shit and head to the bathroom. I don't really want him seeing my body.
I put on flowered fishnets with my black -ripped all the way down in slit form ya know what I'm saying?- jeans and a cropped black hoodie.
I walk back into the room to see Jace fully dressed and damn he looks hot in my clothes.
I notice him grabbing his head and I chuckle.
"Hangover? I'll get you Advil and water, yeah?"
He looks at me and nods.
Once I have the meds and water I give them to Jace and he quickly takes them.
"I'm guessing you don't drink much?" I say.
"Nah. Not really."
We sit on the floor and just talk about nothing in particular.
Jace suddenly asks, "do you have a mom?"
I look at him then straight ahead. "Yeah but uh, she isn't really like a mom ya know? I take care of her. Plus she's rarely ever home so.." I trail off.
"Damn. Sorry man." He looks at me.
"No worries. It's cool."
"Does she know your gay?"
"Yeah. Yeah just recently I told her. My dads known for awhile."
"They cool with it?"
I pause. "My mom is."
I can feel him staring at me but the conversation drops which I'm thankful for.
I mean, I'm pretty sure he knows that my dad hits me but.. that's it.
I suddenly hear a motorcycle pull up. Jace looks out my window and says, "who's that?"
My eyes widen and I try to push him out the window.
"You can't be here!" I frantically say.
Then you can hear "ALEC!"
"I'm not leaving till you tell me who that is."
"It's my dad." Then I push him out the window.
"I thought you said he wasn't coming till tonight?"
"He's not supposed to be here."
I shut the window and he gets into his car, driving off.
My dad barges in. "Who the fuck was here?"
"I uh- no one."
"Don't lie to me boy! Who was he? Did you let him touch you huh? Fuck you?"
He gets progressively closer and I back away
"No! It's not like that!" I try to say but he doesn't buy it.
He grabs me by my shoulders and whispers in my ear, "You are mine."
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I shiver at that. Not because I like it but because I'm terrified.
He roughly pushes my face into the wall and takes off my pants and boxers. Then goes his zipper.
"No! Let go of me!" I try to fight back. I used to let it happen but ever since Jace started getting close to me, having sex whether it be forced or not, makes me feel 10x dirtier.
Of course he didn't listen as he shoves his dick in me, no preparation.
I scream in pain but he just slaps me.
"Shut the fuck up you slut!" He growls at me.
I just cry and grunt as he pounds into me.
"God you have such a tight ass. Your such a whore."
I put my fist In my mouth to keep me from screaming. It'll just be worse for me if I do.
"Call me daddy." He tells me.
I make a pained noise as he smacks my head against the wall. "Say it!"
"D-daddy" I cry.
Then he cums.
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He throws me to the ground and I curl in on myself.
He leaves the room and I pull my clothes on, heading to the bathroom.
I full the tub up with water and wait until it's to the top. I turn off the water and get in, fully clothed.
I rest my arms on the sides and close my eyes.
Images of my dad and random guys fucking me plays in my mind and I start to cry.
I lower myself until I'm under the water completely.

Two hours later I get out. I change into sweatpants and a long hoodie. I feel like covering up.
I then check my phone to see that it is 3:01 pm.
I also see numerous texts and calls, all from Jace.
I read through his texts.
12:05
Jace;) : are you ok?
12:30
Jace;) : What did your dad say?
Missed call from: Jace;)
1:15
Jace;) : please text me
1:30
Jace;) : I'm worried about you
Missed call from: Jace;)
2:11
Jace;) : I stg I will come over there if you don't answer me.
2:50
Jace;) : please be ok.

I feel bad for making him worry but I can't talk to him. He wouldn't understand and he wouldn't care. I can do this on my own. I don't want to worry him further.
I lay in bed and waste the rest of the day.

Jace's POV
I'm worried sick about Alec. He won't answer my texts or calls and I'm freaking out.
I shouldn't be I mean, it's not like I like him or anything.
At 5:30 pm I head down stairs for dinner.
I pick at my food, not really in the mood for food.
"Honey what's wrong?" My mom worriedly asks.
"Nothing I'm just not hungry." I say.
My sister looks at me and says, "you look lovesick."
My head snaps to her. "I am not lovesick ok? I'm just tired."
"Ooh who's the girl?" My brother nudges my shoulder.
"There is no girl." I say.
My dad looks at me as if saying, there's a girl.
God my family is annoying.
My sister won't leave it alone and I lose my shit.
"It's not about a girl ok! It's about a boy!" Everyone's head snaps to look at me.
I look at my mom and she says, "what do you mean?"
"I'm just worried about a friend ok?"
My brother then puts his hand on my shoulder. "Are you gay?"
"Hunny it's ok if you are." My Mom reassures.
"I'm not gay!" I storm up to my room.
I'm not gay ok?
I just need to hear from alec and I'll be fine.

A/U
The internal struggle Jace has to come to terms with his sexuality. Is anyone here a part of the LGBTQ+ community? And if so, are you/ did you have trouble coming to terms with yourself?
So I have everything planned for the next chapter so that's fun. I'll probably start writing it tonight cuz school is going to be the death of me.
Anywho... tomorrow's Monday so don't kill anybody and try to have a good day :)