Νεφελοβάτης / Nefelibata

Where it all began

It's awful
Knowing that all the good things
End
Knowing that you have to
Pretend
Feeling the pain breaking you and
Going back
Where it all began

It all began
From inside
Frozen hearts and forcing smiles
Scared of it and my brain
I will never be the same (I said)
I'm alone
That's how I feel
Taking things personally
And now I'm here
Where I was
One step forward and backwards
Not moving on, not at all

I can't sleep
But still dreaming about
Who I used to be
My confidence is gone so
I'm in misery
Our complex mind is
Half alive
From the pain that lies in
Feeling the pain breaking you and
Going back
Where it all began

It all began
From inside
From the thoughts you want to hide
From the picture perfect scenes
From the things you cannot be
They don't care
That's how they feel
Taking things personally
And now I'm here
Where I was
Losing my self, losing it all
Not moving on
Not moving on

I make a step

I'm turning left when there's nothing right
I'm turning right when there's nothing left

I'm going to be okay
I'm going to be okay
I'm going to be okay

That's what we say
.
.
.

It all began
From inside
Nobody can tell me why
It just happened, maybe not
They should care
They probably don't
They don't know
How I feel
Taking things personally
And now I'm here
I could die
Far from everything I fight for
Not moving on
I'm not moving at all