*present*
I decided to take the long, scenic route home so I could be alone with my thoughts, cause thanks to that lady I am now filled with every memory of him that I once pushed away.
Every laugh we shared. Every hug. Every smile, frown, and pain I had when I was with him. He was everything and nothing all at the same time.
I found myself wondering to the place we first meet and the only place we ever hung out at. I always thought it was weird that we always stayed in the same place but I was to caught up in him to care. Now that I know the reason I feel stupid for being so blind, but how could I have known when our relationship wasn't even real? He wasn't real.
*past*
School let out an hour ago and all I've done is sit in the grass waiting for Ethan. He said he would be here and he hasn't shown.
Did he forget? Or did he just not care? Maybe he's just busy and will be here soon? Whatever the reason I was willing to wait cause for some reason I felt this loyalty to him. Like I would do anything for him or to just spend five more minutes with him, so I waited for four more hours and he finally showed up
"Hey sorry I'm late I uh... I had homework to uh to do." He sounded nervous and unsure but I didn't care, he showed up that's all that matters
"Oh you're fine I had homework to I just got here." yes I lied because I didn't want him to feel bad"Oh well how was you day ella?" and with that we sat there for god knows how long just talking about everything under the sun"
*present*
I wipe away a few tears and take a step back
God I truely loved him but to him none of this was real.
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Sorry I took so long to update I keep getting writers block
