Siyah beyaz Aşk ( fanfiction)

Supposed to be killed

I was supposed to be killed..
But things turned wrong.

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Yara P.O.V :

How all of this happened? I really don't know
I suddenly found myself a wife for the cruelest and the craziest man in the world..
I found myself a wife for a killer

He takes lives and I save it , but when it came to choices I guess we chose the same some how at least at this point .
He chose my life and I chose my uncle's life and for not being a lier I loved being alive as well

Telling me I would never be as a woman for him , telling me I am not his type , that makes me hate him even more than I do . It makes me scared , angry and comfortable at the same time

Why ?! This is the question I can't find an answer to it . He doesn't want me as a body , I am not a useful hostage as I mean nothing to my uncle , I am just useless to him !! Then why did he say yes to me ? Why I am obeying him that much ? Am I afraid ? Is he so intelligent that he knows a hidden benefit of keeping me with him ? Why my heart is racing beside him like that ? Am I that afraid of him ?

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" Doctor?! " he said roughly when I didn't answer his first call
" what ?! " I got scared

" That's not good you now ?
Staying with your husband and thinking about something else! You need to be grateful for staying alive "
he said looking to me ,
but I avoided looking directly to his eyes

" I didn't beg for it.." I whispered

He came out of the car and grabbed me
He got me inside his own apartment and he started

" you didn't beg for your life ?!
You say you are a doctor,
you save lives..then what ?
Their lives are important and yours are not ?
They are selfish and you are not ?
You are the angels and we are the devils? "
he said tightening his grip on my rest
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That time I decided to look directly to his eyes ,
To listen to his heart and to try..
I tried to understand what was beyond his words
His silent anger
I really wanted to know what is in his mind,
What is inside his cold heart
What he wants to have from me..
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Ferhat P.O.V :

I kept on her life..
But she didn't beg for it
Maybe that is the reason I did what I did
I didn't see hate in her eyes even with all of that
For some how she is different..
We are different from each other
Maybe I just want to make her suffer just to let her know what staying alive means..
She avoids looking directly to my eyes
And I only want to know..
Who is this girl ?!
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They didn't have time to do anything as there were rough knocks on the door..

Ferhat went to open angrily to find a drunk woman with a young boy with her .
       He was going to close the door without asking her what she wanted or telling her it was the wrong address ,
       he gave her scornful looks mixed with anger

"  Wait..I am not here for any *** I am here to meet my sister.." she tried to stand still

" Wrong address " he said slapping the door

" Yara !! " she started shouting so he stopped and Yara came quickly

" Abla ?! " ( big sister in Turkish )

" That crazy woman outside is your sister ? " he asked kind of worried but still looks cold as always

" Look I promised I would do anything you want and until now I kept my promise ,
      I married you and I came with you to your own apartment so please.." she begged for the first time , holding tears in her eyes

" Fine ! Still on our counteract, you say nothing they are safe " he said opening the door still looking at Yara

" You *** " she said on the moment she saw her

" Mom please.." the boy cried as he didn't want his aunt to get hurt

" She is drunk ,
    help her to wake up and make her to watch her language or it will not be good . 
    You are a girl of principles and there is a boy in the middle , shame on you.."  He said sarcastically and coldly , just as always,

" Adam my boy..Don't be afraid just go inside and join uncle Ferhat " she said hugging the five - year- old boy

" I am sacred , he doesn't look friendly and mom as you see.." he said trying not to cry

" What's wrong with me *** " she said bad words again
            She was totally the opposite of Yara
Elif was more beautiful than her , she didn't wear Hijab so it was obvious..

Yara had a black her that was medium length , Elif had long brown her..

Yara had dark brown eyes ( like their father )
Elif had green eyes ( like their mother )

Adam was very handsome boy as well , he looked totally like his father , dark her , peachy skin and blue eyes

" What is wrong , abla ?! " Yara asked carrying Adam
and Ferhat was watching from not so far away distant as he was worried about Yara even he didn't show that up or even tried to admit it to himself

" The only wrong thing here is you !
   Marriage from the nowhere!
   Did you sell yourself to him or you fall in love with his money ? 
For being honest he is so *** and so *** but still !
       You said you were not that type , and no what ?
You *** promised to help me , I told you I cannot take care of this *** " she said meaning her life and her son

Yara closed Adam ears for the most of the time
         Even with that he didn't stop crying
" Can you calm down? Nothing would change about that !
I will just need some time ,
   and by then you would be able to accept Ferhat..he is really a good guy "
   Yara lied or maybe she didn't as part of her believed that...