my angel

chapter fourteen

Camerons pov.

Beep....beep...beep....beep

The same noise i have been hearing , the beeping of the heart monitor .... i was currently in tne hospital , well in the room nash was staying in the hospital, i was beside his bed holding his hand and i wasnt planning let go.

After we took nash to the hospital thet had to pump blood into him because he lost to much , nash hasnt woken up but he made it, if i didnt call the hospital sooner he would of...died...

I dont know what i could of done if he died , i dont think i could lf lived if nash died , i dont think i could live if i ,let nash die , dammit i should of known he cut! No wonder he always wears braclets or hoodies or a long sleeved i just that it was normal but i guess part of me knew but i was just in denial .....

I was taken away from my thoughts when Alana walked in .

"I can here as quicly as i could of"she said a bit out of breath.

"Did you come running?"i ask a bit confused

"No cam i came flynig .of course i came running Nash is my best friend" she says rolling her eyes

"God dont have to be so rude" i say harshly

"Im sorry cam its just that "she looks over to nash" that it-t hurts me seeing him l-like this....again" she says the end in a low voice that i barley caught it

"What!" I yell

"Shhh cam, lets talk about this outsude " she says in a hushed whisper galncing at nash

I nod alana leaves the room but before i do i give nash a quick kiss to his forehead and mumble a quick "i love you" before exiting the room

I close the door silently and turn around to a very annyoed looking alana with her arms crossed sround her chest

I glare at her " now tell me what you mean by how you cant see nash like this again?" I say sternly

She takes a deep sigh

"Cam , look i wish i could tell you everything about nash and his past becuase i know you care i can see it in your but i cant-"

I cut her off

"What do you mean you cant! If you want t-" it's my turn to get cut off

"Cam let me finish!, look its not in mine nor anyone elses to tell you things about nash unless he lets me, but of course now you know about him cutting..." she takes another sigh

"Look Cam i know you care i can see it in your eyes andthe way you look at him, i seehow much logning you hold in them , i see how you treat him as if this could be your last day with him, how you want to light up his world, but cam if you really want to know more about , you open up first before him make him trust you, mae him belive in you but most importantly make him love you" she says the last part with so much emotion it brings tears to my eyes

Shes right , damit shes always right....

"Okay Alana i understand , i just have a question, how many times has he...done well..this before"

"Four tims not including this one" she says with sorrow

"Four!" I yell eyes nearly falling out of my sockets

"Yes one time in fourth grade , another in middle school and twice in highschool" she says calmy

"Ughhhhh and i didnt even know about tnis!" I take a deep breath "could you please leave me alone with nash for a while" i ask

She nods " yea sur i understand " she gives me a small smile before walking away

I turn around and take a deep breath i open the hosspital room door

I walk in into the familar coldness and the familar beeping of the heart monitor

I take a seat next to nash and grip his hand with both of my hands

"Hey nash" i say softly giving his hand a soft squeeze " i dont know if you can hear me or not, but i just want to let you know that im here for you, i' ll always be here for you, no matter where you gonand no matter what i be right behind you, you know why becuase your my everthing nash, i will never give up on you, i can never give up on you, you mean so much to me , more than just a friend , more tha just a brother, and im not afriad to admit it, so pease nash please i beg you to wake up please do it for me, please you need to wake up for me " tears are streaming down my face as i say this to him" please nash i cant live wthout you because its something in the way you move that makes me feel like i can't live without you, please nash wake up please do it for me .....do it because i love you......."

I start crying in and pull him to my chest, giving him kissis to his head "i love you nash"....

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Ugghh that was a hassel sorry for the lag its because i did say 10 votes and 5 comments for nest chapter and i just need one more comment so yea i was lik ughh since it seems like i wont get it ill be nice but next time i wont.

Either way hope you guys liked it cx so yea......um did you guys not like how i ended last chap xD ? Sorry cx what do you guys think should happed between matt and carter? Or talor and shawn should there be some drama there or the jacks should i mess around with them? Maybe cam and nash?(evil laugh)

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Felica