mithzan x reader

chapter 36

i got up with alsa shouting at me "y/n get up" i goaned and got up. "come on..." she dragged me downstairs and put me onto a chair. she did my make up and gave me food. "what are you doing..." "your getting married....duh..." my eyes widened. i ate my food and sprited to my room i got there got my dress and took it down to alsa. "well lets do this..." i smiled. i got my dress on and alsa did my hair, i grabbed my white heels and grabbed my sneakers as well. i heard a knock as soon as alsa came down ready as well. "im so glad i chose you as a bride maid.. i sighed. she nodded  and smiled. we opened the door. "Well....the car is waiting..." i came out and saw the car..." my mouth opened. "wow..." we walked down and into the car. we went to the place and we waited in the car till adam called alsa. "how about we listen to some music while we wait.." alsa said. i nodded "dont be scared trust me....it not that bad..." i took a breath. i nodded. "i know... " i smiled she put the music on and masquerade came on. i started to sing along an didnt notice i was so loud that alsa was recording me. sing. when i stopped i looked at alsa smiling. i was confussed. "talk about timing....its adam." she answered. my anxiety started to pick up now. "aright...ok..." she moved her phone. "come...the pre wedding photos...come on..." i nodded. i got out i saw adam round the side i took a big breath and went down to him. "sis you look great..." i smiled. i saw max. he was super red. i snorted. "he was super worried you would do a runner... " "i wouldn't ever...." "anyway...lets get this done...."

we took the pre wedding photos. and then went to the actually wedding. max was in there and i was waiting at the back of the church. i was starting to panic, "hey....your gonna go great..." adam went. "wheres dad..." "couldnt make it here... but he'll try to make it for the reception.." i nodded. "so im guessing...." "that im walking you down...yeah...." i took a breath. i heard the music and me and adam started to walk down. "im not gonna be able to do this..." "how...." "im going to stutter... then panic then run out like normal...." "trust me...just look at max your fear will go away..." i nodded looking at max smile that made me blush a bit and look at the floor. i go there and adam stood next to max and alsa next me.. i was screaming on the inside. the priest did his thing we both said i do. and then it was final we where married. i was happy. we walked out and got into the car and so did alsa and adam. "oh my god..." i took a breath... alsa laughed so did adam. "what did i tell you...." "i almost did adam, i almost did...." "did what..." "i almost stuttered on my words...." "and she said she was gonna stutter then panic then run out..." "but i didnt...because i was strong..." i said proud of myself. "well im glad you didnt...." he smiled. "me too...." alsa put on music and she put on ooh Cecilia, i sang along to it and so did adam. we got to the reception, it was fun there, then there was the slow dance, where adam sung hallelujah,  we dance then went and sat down again, since i was not the dancing type, "come on, y/n come dance" "i dont dance guys, you know this" it was alsa trying to get me to dance" "but you looked fine with max" "alsa, im a youtuber, i dont really dance" "nonsense, now come on" "really" "yes, now come on" "no thank you, im actually, going to find adam" i went going down out of the room, just to sit outside, i sat there, looking around, i didnt notice i had been out here that long, "hey, there you are, everyone is looking for you" "huh? i haven't been out here that long max" "yes you have, you missed adam dancing" "i did, dang it" i went, "but i understand why your out here, there's not much to do is there" "no, there's not" he sat next me, so i put my head on his shoulder, "to be honest, im glad we married, but i really just want to go home" "why? does playing video games sound better then this" "kinda" "well, im there with ya, it really does" "plus i really just want to beat you in Mario kart" "please, i can still beat you in that" "want to test that" "i mean i would but we cant, since we can play video games here, since it a wedding reception" "well thats stuiped..." "i know" "its stuiped cause you have a bunch of gamer's here and no where to play video games" "well, soon as we can, we can go home, maybe another hour, since alsa and adam, wanted this set up, and didnt tell me, i really thought we where having dinner then going" "wow, they better be cleaning up" "better be"  he went, "anyway, people are starting to go, so, i would say we only have a few people left, only our friends" "wait, who are the people here though" "most of peoples friends, and there family's, who dont know us, but got dragged along, but other then that the rest our your friends and mine" i smiled, we saw a whole group leave we went back in, and everyone was cleaning up, "how much did we miss" i went, "a lot, but we had to shut it down since, well, you two weren't having fun" "thanks alsa" i went, we helped clean up but ended up we me and max having to leave early, we got back to our house, i got out of the dress, and into my pjs, max did the same, we then sat there playing video games, 

a month later

we where walking the office when tim came out of now where scaring me, "you are so dead" "i bet yo cant scare me before we go to lunch in a hour or two " "does it count if i do it when we're walking" "yes, other wise, lunch" "fine" i knew i could kinda get him, so i left him alone for about 50 minutes, till i saw adam, "adam what time are we going to lunch" i shouted, "um, hour, i still have to do something"he shouted back "ok thank you" i shouted again, max came in, "do you know tim thinks he's getting lunch off you" "why" "he thinks your not gonna get him" "well, we do have to look around this map in a bit, so ill get him then" "well, ill help" we logged on to this map, making a little thing, where max when invisible, i went to tim "tim, want to log on to the map, and make sure particles are turned off, cause i think you need night vision with the whole thing cause its kinda dark..." "ok" i went back to max, "i have also made my self super tiny and so im behind you he cant see me" i nodded, we waited for him to join then join our skype call, max mic was muted thought. "ok, what are we doing" "looking around this map, cause, its for adam and jin, so i want to know if it scary enough" i slashed a night potion on us, and we looked around, "wait i found something" "what did you find" "i know who you are, it was a book" "well i have a sign, im gonna tp to you" i did "what do you want there" this went on for a while till, i got max to go scar him at his station, where he was already spooked, "hold up tim my game crashed" i logged off, "give me a minute" i took my head set off making my way with max to tim, we got there "hi tim" we both yelled, he threw his head set off. "the only time im not paying attention" "also, tim" "yes" "that was a map max created and was just so tiny you couldnt see him" "i hate you two" "we love you too" i said running off, i wen to my station again, i remember i had a lot of work to be done, i rolled my eyes, putting on my fav song then getting on with my work.

~ok.
1. I am so sorry. I took this long to post it. I've been sitting on it for a while.
2. My mum found out about my cutting and was going to take me to the doctors but cause i have social anxiety i told her not too. And she was gonna tell my dad too again told her not to. And that I wouldn't do it again. When really I'm and just gonna wait till next year or so and do it again cause im gonna lose someone i hold dear.
3. This chapter doesn't mean I'm in the right state of mind. I am in the midst of finding myself and trying to get over depression. Trust me it is hard to get out when you fall in. But I love you all for coming along this far. But I still know where I want this book to go, but I'm not gonna say since its a secret.
But yeah
xox flux