I'm not sure how to describe it anymore, but I know this. I'm not sad. I'm not bruised. I'm not scarred. I'm not struggling to wake up everyday. I'm not fearing what will happen next. I'm not worrying about how I should say something. I'm not worrying about how I should dress. I'm not worried about how loud I laugh. I'm not worried about how much I talk. I'm not worried about doing everything wrong. I'm not scared anymore. I'm happy, and it's becoming my usual. Things still surprise me, they're still foreign concepts, but I'm learning what it's like to have someone care about you. I'm learning how it feels to mean something to someone. How it feels for someone to say "I appreciate you." and mean it.
