All Alone With Your Thoughts// Kickthepj

2:the messages

Anxiety is a big part of this one so yeah just wanted to let you know bye

Thank god I got a window seat. I loved heights. (sorry if this isn't true!) Gave me inspiration for art. The clouds over the sunset. The twinkling of the lights below you. I mainly like painting the starts. The planets. The whole life rotation around you. I loved it all.

The people next to me were familiar sounding. I didn't look at first incase they were really creepy, I didn't want nightmares ok, but the sound of their voice was really bugging me. I have heard it before, just where? I lost it I turned to look at the man and I quickly turned around. I was so shy. It was the one... The only... Kickthepj. I couldnt talk to him or even look at without getting butterfly's in my stomach. I just hoped I wouldn't have to talk to him. But my unlucky self wouldn't allow it. He tapped my on my shoulder. I was doomed.

'Um, miss? I was really curious to why you have been just looking out the window this whole time?'

'Uh.... 'I was staring oh no oh no oh no. TALK GOD DAMN IT! 'Uhh oh.. I just really like the clouds, that's all... Sorry'

'It's okay, I just wanted to see if you were okay and needed a hug but u have to agree with you the view is amazing, I'm Pj by the way'
'(y/n), I'm fine though thanks for worrying' he nodded and whent back to whatever it was he was doing before. The rest of the flight I just stared out the window, once again. We landed and he smiled at me then waved goodbye and got off the plane. I followed shortly after. I grabbed my luggage and whent to the apartment I bought while I was in the plane. I when and asked the landlord for the key she kindly gave it to me and waved me off.

I bought a slightly furnished one so I didn't need to go and bye stuff. I arranged everything, and put everything where it was supposed to go. I had only bought a one room apartment because I had no friends here in London. Not like you had any in California either. Stop it. I don't need you to tell me things I already know. When I finished it was 2 am so I decided to sleep when I remembered tomorrow is Sunday so I had to make a video so I decided to think about it in the morning.
I woke up to the alarm on my phone you off. I whent and took a shower then I thought I needed some food. So I went out to a grocery store across the street from my apartment building.
I walked over and bought some cereal, milk, chips, soda, and some other stuff. When I got to the front I paid and on the way out the cashier said 'have a good day sir'. Wow I knew having short hair could cause some problems. But like I was wearing makeup wait.. I wasn't wearing makeup YUP YOU JUST WHENT OUT IN BARE FACE UGLYNESS . Shut up. Go away. I don't need you. I'm always here to make you hate yourself more. whatever fine.

When I got home I got out my paints and canvas. Got my camera. And was ready to film. I had an idea to paint an old building, falling, dyeing if you will, and making way for a sunrise. Because you have to kill things to let new beautiful things appear. 'Hello creativity squad! So... I moved to England!! So I'm painting a building today.' I carried on and when I was done I edited it and posted it at 6pm. everyone seemed to like my art except for a few people but that was ok I guess. Today I got comments saying to do a face reveal next week for 5 million subscribers. But I wasn't totally sure. I kept my identity locked up so people couldn't call me ugly more than I already do myself. So I decided to go on a walk to think about it.

Heyo guys so that was the second chapter of the fantastic foursome. Hope you are enjoying!!!