Never Been Broken Before

Chapter: I

Hi
I'm Samantha
I'm 17 and I go to Highschool.
My hobbies are surfing, bungee jumping, pole dancing..
"No..no" I muttered and pressed the backspace key a couple of times. Seriously bungee jumping and pole dancing? Who am I kidding..I can't even ride a bicycle.
I groaned and typed once again my Chatix Bio ( Chatix is an online site where you can chat with people all around the world ) ( it's not real, I just made it up )
I started with a hey to seem more friendlier and easy going.
Hey
It's Samantha here. :)
I'm 17 and I love cats.
Cats are bae, so is Starbucks.
....
"Screw this" I said and copied the whole thing and pressed "Delete"
I breathed out and leaned back on the chair.
I' was just wasting my time. I don't even like Starbucks or cats. Cats are alright, but my mum's got a breathing problem, so having cats jump around the home, shedding its hair is probably not the best idea.

I turned off my computer. And stared at the black screen. I was bored out of my mind.
It's not like I had nothing to do. I had tons of work. School work that is. But I just didn't feel like doing anything.

Ya know the feeling you get when nothing interests you. Even your most favourite book or movie seems plain and boring, that's exactly how I was feeling. My phone buzzed a couple of times. I checked it, and it was my bestfriend. I read her texts from the notification tab. I didn't open them because if I did she'd know I've read her texts and she'd want me to reply. And I really wasn't in the mood to text her or anybody.

I've been ignoring a lot of people lately which I know isn't very nice. I wouldn't say that I'm unloved or unwanted. There are plenty of people who genuinely like me and care for me. But still, I get this lonely feeling. There's an empty void in my heart. I feel cold and less human as the days go by.

I feel so dead.

I see my classmates go out with their friends and family. I don't leave my home for anything but school. Call me whatever you want, but the thought of getting dressed up and going out somewhere just doesn't excite me. I've turned down so many people's invites. Including my friend's, who wanted me to go to her birthday party.

Sometimes I wonder, will this affect my life in the future? Or is it just a normal phase that everyone goes through? None of my friends are like this. My siblings aren't like this. My mum is pretty outgoing and confident. Why am I nothing like her?

I can't take things in my own hand. I can never make decisions. I can't lead people or follow them until the end of time.
I'm shy, extremely shy and people would often think I'm rude. I'm anti-social. The thought of making new friends scares me. I hate it when my friends force me to hang out with their friends. Whenever I'm with their friends there's this voice in my head that screams "I'm fun trust me and I don't hate you, it's just that I'm shy and i don't feel comfortable around you people!"

But I can never make anybody understand this. I'm pretty sure it's only me. Does anyone relate with me? If yes, okay. But I'm even worse than you. -_-

"Samantha? What are you doing?" My mom asked, coming from behind. "Nothing mom, I was just...doing my school work" I said quickly getting up. Real smooth Sam.. ..real smooth.
She looked at me suspiciously because I had no books or papers laying around.

"Alright honey, whatever you say. Listen Sam, I'm heading to the store, do you want anything?" She asked titling her head to the side. I grinned at her, I love my mom so much.
"Yes, just a packet of chips." I said feeling a little embarrassed. Because I always ask her that. Every time she goes grocery shopping, a packet of chips is a must. And no not those huge family packet. I like those smaller ones. She rolled her eyes, " you and your obsession with Potato chips. Fine anything else?"
"Nope nothing else madre!" I said folding my arms and flashing her my best smile.
She chuckled and left the room.
I sighed and continued to stare at my computer's black screen.

"Why is my life so boring?" I said to myself, and stretched my arms. Sitting in the same position for hours is so not healthy. I got up and left the room for some fresh air.

And that's when I saw him.

To be continued

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