Teacher (Vkook)♡

°Depression°

    

  

    Jungkook P.O.V
    

     I feel like I can't breath anymore,my mind tell me this isn't real...No,this can't be.
   
   My eyes are blurry and my body can't stop shaking incontrollably,the last memories come in my brain,my parents's kind words,everything..from now on, I-Im alone?What I will do now?I feel like a nobody here,this house is not the same,Im scared....Someone help me,please!I shouted alone in my room,on the cold floor,with the hope that someone will hear me,but I know this won't be happen.
   
  This is inutile,they will never come back,Jungkook,stop thinking.Suddenly the worst thought appear in my brain that put me on the edge of pain,like a knife,right in my heart......
 
  MY BIRTHDAY BROUGHT THEM DEATH....
   MY EXISTENCE,MY BIRTH...THEY DIED BECAUSE OF ME!!!
  
   I scream alone in my room,hated the day I was born and not stoping my tears to fall down like hours.My happiness is now gone.Because of my tears I didn't see anything,my eyes hurted so bad and were red like roses.

   After all my bad feels going out,I finally accepted my destiny and curse every moment of my life,sadness being replaced by angryness in myself.
  
   Now I don't even know how I was so happy like nothing bad was happening,all beautiful memories were erased from my heart like they never existed in past.
  
   My eyes were blocked at the view of the clock from the wall and saw it was passed midnight,that mean it was my birthday,the worse day of my life.

    I lost all my trust in me and from now on I hated the day i was born.I look down and start questioning myself,screaming alone like I was crazy, gipping my hair: "MY PARENTS DOESN'T DESERVE THIS,WHY YOU MADE ME,MOM?TO DIE TODAY?I-IM S-SO SORRY MOM,DAD,I DIDN'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN,I-IS ALL..MY FAULT".
  
   With the last words I got up finally from the cold floor,my legs hurting and I felt very tired,my eyes closed up immediately and fall off on the bed.
   The nightmare....
   Have just begun....

               FEW YEARS PASSED

   
   After the most horrible day of Jungkook's life everything changed.He never was that mesmerizing boy with bunny smile,only a pale ghost who didn't talk with anyone.
   
   His personality dissapeared,in that day no friends were around him to help the poor boy,they thought only that Jungkook had no money and bullied him,lefting bruises on his body,beside that the younger doesn't love himself so he don't talk with people,that made his old friends angrier.
   
   The only kind person who help him,knowing his situation was his uncle who visited the house,giving him money for financial bills and for his existence,like school and food.Anyway he could not afford so many,the little money being spend on things that not let him die.
   
   The younger doesn't miss anyone,he  hated everything,he spend his school day like glued on the chair,taking good grades,making teachers proud of him and kind at the same time,knowing his past story with the parents and comforting him with words.
  
   But sadly the others classmates envied him and say hurtful words to Jungkook everytime they have the chance,and bullied him on corridors.
 
  Finally it was the time for the younger to go to an University in Seoul,escaping from all the hate from past school,but not calming himself knowing that everywere he go will be treated the same because of his personality and because he was poor too.
 
  Jungkook stay alone like always at home on the dinner table and looked blanky at the clock,old memories appeared suddenly in front of his eyes,his heart breaking in pieces and start speaking with himself:
 
    "Oh,is m-midnight again...that means....is my b-birthday again,i'll turn 18,is not like I care".
  
   Jungkook finished the ramen and leave the kitchen,he entered in his room,feeling that he need to look at his parents's photos.He hold them tight in his fragile hands.His lower lip started to trembling,speaking with himself because he had nobody in his life,except his dear uncle.
   
   "I wish you two were here for me,to feel warm around kind words and hugs...I-Im so sorry".Small drops go through the photos from his hands.
   

   

    But there weren't tears....
 

     Only blood.

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   》 Yep,another boring chapter,but finally in the next will appear Taehyung and Jungkook in University.Smuuut will come 😍😂《
     

    
   

  ~ This is how he look now in the story,18 years😍(appearance) .Thank you for reading my chapters 😘~