Adore You

Chapter 22 - Panick Attack

*Jennifer's POV*

I was hurt, I was confused, there was no clarity to anything at all. I could have been underwater, it would have made more sense.

"Love you!" the un-named girl said, kissed Cameron and left.

I pried my eyes open and looked at the blurred face of... of... I didn't know. I guess that was Chloe. They said something, I don't know what, but I saw their mouth move to form words that I couldn't hear. I didn't understand what was happening, I didn't...

I closed my eyes again, the effort of keeping them open was too much for that moment.

I couldn't breathe. I was literally having trouble getting air into my lungs. My chest was doing this weird constricting thing that I had never felt before. It felt like a balloon that wouldn't expand any bigger than the size of an egg. My whole body felt like it had been doused in ice water. Everyone was looking at me. I had to move.

I finally willed my legs to move and ran into the nearest bathroom, slammed the door, and locked the door.

I stumbled towards the sink suddenly feeling nauseous, gripping the chipped marble edge so hard my knuckles turned white. I pressed my forehead to the dirty mirror, it felt cool on my pounding head as I tried to get control of her breathing.

I wish I could've cried. I wanted to cry.

"Hey Jen" Sarah called.

"Jennifer!" Isabelle called even louder. When did Isabelle come there? Was everyone waiting ohtside for me?

"Hey have you guys seen Jennifer, she is here?!" Someone, who think was Jack asked from the doorway.

"Yes!" Chloe replied.

"What happened?!" Nash asked.

"She saw Cameron with another girl." Chloe said quietly guessing I wasn't hearing them, but I was. I may have called her a coward though.

"He did what?" Jack said in an icily calm voice.

"Jennifer, baby can you let me in?" It was lunchtime so I was thankful the corridor was basically empty except for a few people.

"Jennifer, please."  Chloe said, pressing her forehead to the door.

"I just want to help. I'm here ok? I'm not going anywhere. I know what your feeling and I promise you can get through this but you can't do this alone" Chloe said. How did she feel how I felt?

I opened the door. Chloe stood back and looked at me.

"Oh Jennifer." Isabelle said softly.

"I...having...trouble...breathing" I choked out, clutching my chest and trying to draw in a breath.

"Oh god." Carter exclaimed, snapping out of his sympathetic gaze. He grabbed on to arms and walked me back into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him with booted foot.

I was still trying desperately to breathe.

"Jennifer, Jennifer listen to me, you're having a panic attack ok?" Carter said calmly, almost as if he were talking to a kid. He lowered me to the ground with him, gripping my shoulders firmly.

"Thanks Car-" I tried to talk but I failed.

"I used to get these all the time after my dad died, kinda feels like your having a heart attack right?" Chloe said. She never mentioned us about panick attacks. Carter was surprised too. I nodded her head franticly.

"Ok, Ok look at me, look at me Jennifer." Chloe said firmly tilting my chin up to look her in the eyes.

"Whenever I had an attack, my mom would hold me and rub my back until it went away. I'm going to do that for you now ok?" Chloe asked.

I nodded.

"Just relax." Chloe said soothingly, starting to move her hand slowly in a circular motion over my back.

"Just breathe, breathe. In through the nose, out the mouth, that's right.... So awesome... Are you better know? Keep it. Keep breathing. " she continued.

I, all of a sudden startes breathing again. I took some air in my lungs and gave it back slowly.

"Thank... thank you.  I had ne-never lived something like that before." I said crying. Crying feels so much better than not breathing.

"It's probably because of how much stress and pressure you've been under. You need to see a doctor."

"Hah again?" I said and smirked. When I standed up, everyone was staring at me. Everyone was nervous. At the end of the numerous people, I saw Cameron. He looked at me feeling sorry for me. Don't you dare feel sorry for me. I left there, got into Carter’s car to bring me to hospital.

"So we're back here again. My middke finger didn't work at all." I said to Carter. Isabelle and Sarah smirked. Chloe was biting her lips and shaking her legs.

After wasting my hours at the hospital,  finally a doctor came to see me.

"It looks like you have been under a lot of stress lately, and you haven't eaten anything in days. You musn't do this to yourself. You will stay here just in case something happens, you will be given serum." doc said.

I didn’t have the power to argue with him so I just said okay.

What if Cameron found someone better? What if she was perfect for him? What if he realized I was not everything he wanted? All of those thoughts started to overflow my mind. Tears were starting to slide down my cheek.

Someone opened the door without knocking and came in. Cameron.

"Get out..." I said calmly.

"No I'm not. Can't you see what you're doing to yourself?"

"I can, thanks for letting me know. Now get out. It gets worse seeing you around me and it will get worse. Go meet your girl." I said this sounding braver than I actually was

He kicked the table near me and yelled. "YOU'RE DRIVING ME CRAZY! Stop doing this to yourself. Stop it. There are thousands of guys waiting for you out there, people who are better than me! I hurt you, and I can't stand seeing you hurt. You deserve better people than me Jennifer. You deserve better..."

"You don't get it, do you?! None of them will ever make me feel as good as you did. None of them will... Nevermind." I yelled back at him realizing maybe he didn't mean what he said.

"I'm sorry for what I put you through. Goodbye, Jennifer..." he said slowly, and left the room.

I didn’t reply.

*Isabelle's POV*

After a night of thinking about Jennifer, we woke up and went to the hospital to take her.

We went to her room, and it was empty.

"There's something wrong." Sarah said.

"Hey, where is Jennifer? Did she leave?" I asked the nurse.

"Let me see her file..... Yeah she left with her mother this morning, she had tickets for a plane. I don’t remember where she is going but she's leaving US."

"Uh... thank you..." I said and looked at the girls.

"She's back to her country, without telling us? Why?" I asked in wonder. Why did she go back to Turkey?