My non- binary diary

Rant

So as you can tell by the title, this chapter is just going to be a bit of a rant.
So I've been really stressed lately that's why I haven't been writing.
I told my gf that I'm agender and she was cool but our relationship still has to be a secret from family even though it's been almost 4 months. I get not telling her family but mine would understand.
I've been having anxiety attacks over the last few weeks and my brain is so full that it's hard to concentrate on anything, especially school.
I ended up staying home from school two days because of an anxiety attack and then having a talk with my school counselor. I told him and my dad about my depression and anxiety. They don't know why but Ill get there.
I don't really know who's supportive of the lgbtq community at my school besides my GSA advisors. I go by Dawn in most of my classes but it's not like the teachers really know why. I told them all when they asked why that it was because Dawn is my middle name. I'm scared that I'll be ridiculed by the other students for being myself. I'm a junior I could hold out one more year and not have to come out in high school.
There has been increased hate lately surrounding the trans community at my school. That might have something to do with a larger trans presence. I have heard comments that made me want to hurt someone, from strangers and people I have known for years. I think that people are ignorant to these issues, that they have know idea what they're talking about, or the impact that it can have when a trans person hears them say "they aren't real". I think that they need to be educated, but the people saying the hatful and ignorant things are the ones who don't pay attention to the educational materials available/presented in school. As one of the leaders of my schools GSA I may bring up the issue next week.
Thanks for listening to my rant😠🙃
-Dawn