My non- binary diary

Comming out.

So I have a coming out letter written, but have yet to give it to my parents. This is probably because, I have come out twice already and am nervous about my parent's reactions. I came out to my mom and my friends in both seventh and eighth grade. I came out as bisexual first and then as gay the following year. I think I had just wanted a label for myself so I pushed myself to pick one and just go with it. The times between when I told my friends and my parents differed a bit. I tend to tell my friends things first because I know they are going to be more accepting of me. My mom has been accepting of my sexuality. I don't know if my mom or dad will accept my gender as valid. My extended family wouldn't accept my sexuality or my gender, with a few exceptions. I told my cousin a couple years ago and she told her step mom. I have a few allies on my dads side. My grandma is very anti anything she doesn't understand. Gender being even more of a touchy subject then sexuality. Telling any of them would probably mean, at least me getting disowned by my grandparents and probably my grandma's sister too.
I am living at home so I need to know that I have a safe place to stay. Before I first came out to my mom I  talked with friends who let their parents know just in case I needed somewhere to sleep one night. I was terrified the first time I emailed a letter to my mom. We never actually talked though so it wasn't too bad. My current letter that I want to send is like five paragraphs and I asked my mom to talk to me after she read it. I don't know if she'll share it with my dad and then we'll talk as a whole family or not. My letter has my sexuality, my gender( or lack of) and talks about my experiences coming to this conclusion. I also directed her to the Trevor project website because I was on their online chat group for years and the site was helpful. I want my parents to understand first before I tell everyone I know.

Bye till next chapter.
-se se