unwaited love

happy start ? think twice !

So as Franshisco said he liked me i was so happy about it and i said i felt just as he did and after a week or so we started dating and to be more exact it was on the 4th of december 2016 at 01:04AM (yes i do remember because it was a big day for me ) but it wasn't like any normale relationship he really wasn't acting like a boyfriend and it was kinda weired between us 

There was this girl called ymir who was basiclly franshisco's crush , and whenever i was standing with him she would come to us and he would completly forget about my existance and that like added up on what i had suffered the year before that 

but you know days followed and he decieded that we would be better off as friends since he got so close with his crush ymir but yah i said i was okey with that and yah we did break up like three days before we'd be one month strong

He broke up with me on a tuesday at 12PM and like the afternoon in english class i had public speaking and i prepared nothing and when i stood there i tried my best to look happy as i was like i didn't want to show how much it broke my heart when he broke up with me just for her 

For the public speaking i talked about transgender and kids sufferring from it and i was talking as if i was a mother of a kid named zac who thought he was a girl and i felt happy to talk about it because i like to defend ill people and stuff the teacher was so so pleased with my english accent and stuff and he was looking at me with bright eyeslike you know i felt he was proud of me and for once i liked that ... even if it was for just few seconds but yah 

when i heard rumors about them dating i got so so angry , neither at him nor at her , i was mostly angry towards my self ,i became depressed and hated my self , realising how much unlucky i was with the person i truely loved like i was shook to be honest but i kept my self together and could go through that 

Just to not confuse you; they talked about dating and stuff but they never dated tho ,they were close to be in a relationship because i remember when franshisco asked me " what do you think about me and ymir dating ? " i was so in shock like why would he ask me that while knowing hw madly in love i am with him but all i said was " good" he was like "how good?" i said "you know , good couple " and then he answered " okey " , but they didn't date after that 

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.HEEEEY GUYS 

finally exams ended and i am one week away for my 15days vacation and i just can't wait  and sorry for not posting lately i was drown in exams but i'm free now and i'll be writing everything to be ponctual and what i mean by that is that i want  to arrive to where i am now and be able to write everything in details while i still remember it all 

love youuu , BYEE