Obsession

26

•G Dragon•

My whole body feels as though it is shaking. I almost cry at this weird emotions that is going through me.
What is going on? I can feel my eyes sting with tears. Why am I feeling so sad, and anxious?

"Lights out" I hear a guard shout. The lights in the prison shut off indicating that it's time for us to go to sleep. I sit in the dark silently crying to myself. I can't hold it in anymore; this pain hurts me too much. All I can think about right now is Vanna.

"Please be okay" I whisper to myself.

•Vanna•

"Vanna calm down, and just breath. You are going to be okay. I'm on my way" Jonghyun's words replay in my head as I try to calm myself sitting on my couch.

My pain is more severe, I can't help but to cry. I try to lay back and close my eyes, but I all of a sudden get an image of Jiyong.

I sit up opening my eyes. What the fuck! Why does he have to pop into my head right now. I put my hands on my stomach. Jiyong's face comes into my mind again. His eyes, nose, smile, hands, everything I can't stop thinking about him.

"Please stop" I cry to myself. I just want him out of my head! "Jiyong please! Get out of my head" I squeeze my eyes shut. Another wave of pain hits, I can't stop the little yelp that slips out of my mouth.

"Jonghyun please hurry" I whisper.

•G Dragon•

My warm tears continue to fall as the sadness, and pain shoot through me. I'm not even sure what is wrong with me, but all that is in my mind is Vanna.

I really hope she is okay. It makes me so angry that I'm trapped in here, and can't even do anything, I can't even call her. I don't even know what is going on right now. Is she hurt? Is she safe? Is she all alone? I just want her. I want to be with her. I don't want her in pain. Is her pain causing me pain? God I don't even know what is going on.

•Vanna•

"Ahhh it hurts Jonghyun!" I cry out. Jonghyun came and picked me up bridal style to take me to his car, and drive to the hospital. We are on our way right now.

"I know Vanna, it's okay. You are going into labor just breath for me okay"

"I'm trying! It hurts so much" I cry out gripping the car seat.

We get to the hospital. Jonghyun helps me out of the car. He picks me up, and takes me to the entrance where he sits me in a wheelchair. Jonghyun brings me to a room, and a nurse helps me out of my pants and underwear. She puts a gown on me. I see Jonghyun leave. "W-Where is Jonghyun going?"

"Sweetie don't worry. Dr. Jonghyun is getting everything prepared to deliver your baby. Just lay down" the nurse helps me lay down. She gently rubs my hair out of my face, soothingly running her fingers through my hair.

This gesture makes me really sad all of a sudden, and I start to cry. I wish Jiyong was here. I feel so alone. I feel horrible that my daughter won't at least get to meet her dad. I hate myself for being in this situation. I always wished for a husband holding my hand, and rubbing my head as I give birth to our child. I feel even worse that I am bringing an innocent baby into this world, into my fucked up life, and my baby won't even have a dad. I hate myself. Jiyong I wish you were here.

•G Dragon•

"Oh my god" I cover my mouth and sob. I feel like I'm in physical pain.

My heart hurts. I have no idea what is wrong with me right now. I feel like I don't even want to live anymore. This sadness in me feels like I'm falling down an endless hole.