Save Me

33| Lauren

"Look, I did what you wanted. I stayed away from you and let you do your thing. Regardless of what I wanted, I love and respect you enough to know when to let go so that you could move forward to getting better."

"Let go?" Bam's brows furrowed in confusion. "Baby, I'm not trying to move forward without you."

My cheeks flushed with red. I couldn't hide it even if I tried, it was the settle things with him that made me fall so easily for him. "That's not what you said to me three months ago, Brandon."

He sighed and nodded. "You right, maybe I should've clarified what I meant. Lauren, I couldn't go into rehab doing it just for you because at that point you and Nas were my only reasons for really trying to get better before now. I had to want to live for myself and the only way I could do that is to put distance between us. Baby, I had conversations with God about you every night while I was in there about how I wanted to be better man for you. So no, I couldn't keep what we had going on because I felt like until I get right, you deserved better and I can't be selfish about that Now, if you already got a man then my feelings are hurt but I'll—"

"Bam," I softly called his name to interrupt his rambling. He gave me his full attention and his warm eyes observing my every move always made me feel a way. Tonight was no different.

"Yes, Lauren?"

"I already got a man." I bit on my bottom lip as I watched his reaction to those five words. I could tell that he was pissed by the way his nose flared up and his jaw clinched.

I couldn't keep a serious face on for much longer. I busted out laughing and he stood there clueless about my fit of giggles. "What you laughing at? I don't see shit funny." I could hear the annoyance in his voice.

"Come here."

He looked at me skeptically and didn't move. I playfully rolled my eyes because I knew that he had a full ass attitude right now. I placed my pop tart on the counter and walked toward him til I was right in his face.

I put my hand on my hip and cocked my head to the side. "Brandon, I know you hear me."

"Mhm, I hear you. So who is the guy? He treating you right..."

I sucked my teeth and chuckled. "He's amazing. I think you'd like him a lot. He has the biggest heart, he's funny, and fine as fu—"

"Eh, chill. As long as you happy, but please spare me the specifics."

I shook my head because he really couldn't tell that I was talking about him and only him. Growing tired of Bam acting slow, I took his toned arms to wrap them around my waist.

I reached up to cup his freshly trimmed face in my hands and pulled him in to me. I placed a brief kiss on his lips and tried to back away, but Bam wasn't having that.

He gripped my waist tighter and started to suck on my bottom lip. A small moan released from my mouth. His hands trailed down to my butt and he swiftly picked me up in one motion to sit me up on the counter.

I felt the thick tent in his pants poking me. If I wasn't already eager before, this had me going. He loosened the wrap string from my robe and felt up on my body while leaving a trail of kisses down my neck. I got chills over his touch and I wanted him inside me now. It had been over 2 years since I had any sexual activity that I actually consented to and I was more than ready.

"I want it," I whined with as I tugged on his pants. His hooded eyes stared me down like I was a meal.

"You sure?" Bam questioned me with his forehead rested on mine. I nodded. He knew that Christian is the only man I had ever slept with, so this was like starting all over again for me. "I don't have any condoms on me, you sure?"

I thought about it and neither did I, but I wanted this. "Come inside," was all I said while taking off my robe completely to show me nearly bare naked. Bam rolled pants and his briefs down just enough for me to see all of the glory that he was working with. I felt myself getting wet by watching him stroke himself a few times.

I moved his hand and replaced it with mine. I could barely take all of his girth in my hand. Bam's head dropped back and he looked at the ceiling. "Fuck," he groaned, adding, "let me feel you..."

He pulled on my panties to move them to side with his finger before rubbing his dick on my privates. I couldn't take the teasing and by the smirk on his face he knew it. Without warning, in a swift motion his package filled me up. I couldn't help but to gasp.

Bam lifted me from the counter and carried me over to the couch. It was there that he penetrated my insides so deep that I think I felt him in the depths of my soul, but I wouldn't dare complain.

I needed him. I wanted him. I got him.

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I know it's been a while, but don't kill me. Ya girl was trying to secure this degree for May 2018 lol.

Anyway, sooo how we feeling about Bam and Lauren?

I didn't give y'all much of a sex scene because sometimes, just sometimes y'all horny asses don't need one lol.

Also, check out my new book "4Play" when you get a chance. It's about everything y'all love: boy bands, love, sex, and DRAMA. Sooo go read that 1st chapter for me. Bless up!🙏🏾