Alrite homeskillet biscuit, yesterday I went to this place full of rainbows & you guessed it unicorns! :3 Actually its more full of the color white & smells like old ppl O.O!! Which is weird since I didnt see any old people.........ANYBUTT! Wait where was I goin with this... OH! I seen Kyle yesterday! & he actually didn't seem bad after I read everything to him I about died of happiness when I saw his face! ♥♥♥ :D He smiled from ear to ear he laughed, he smiled, he cried, hell he actually looked lik he belonged in a nut hut instead of rehab xD So I read things from a few different ppl Rae, Josie, Haya, Ash, erm... well and a few others I dont have the list of things with me right now so yep! But we recorded what he said on my phone so I could type it out and put it on here for you guys to know he still cares, and he DOES think/worry about you all the time! This may be pretty long but for those of you that dont want to read other ppls I'll make it VERY noticable of whose is whose & I hope you read what I had to say to if not then imma... imma... imma... CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 :'( If you made me cry which you wouldn't know if you read this your a butthole & imma send the evil unicorns to kidnap you in your sleep >:) that'll teach ya! OH and if you did read this SHHHHH don't tell em they are gonna get ateded by the unicorns! :)
This is where I leave you & Kyle comes in.... sad face. I know you are all sad but I guessss kyle has to talk to... BUT don't worry I'll be back!!!! :D Until then fair winds :3
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June 1, 2012 xD since ur datin all urs i feel the need too :)
Dear Rae,
I miss u WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY more than u could ever miss me ♥, o ya i went there ;) xD Damn... i jus miss u so much. I feel lik by bein gone i risk SO much wit u, not bein able to cheer u up if somethin goes wrong, or worse u move on. Which i kno u said u wont an that makes my heart sore wit joy honest! Jus seein thos words mak me feel lik the luckiest guy in the world even when i look around an see where i am. This past month has sucked ass, mainly bcuz i cant talk wit u, my therapist keeps askin "What makes Kyle happy?" in that serious/annoying voice, & im lik "Talkin wit Rae makes Kyle happy, talkin wit u makes Kyle angry" -.- seriously they need to fire that asshole an jus make u my therapist i would b cured in no time ;) I try to b good but there is only so much i can take. I didnt kno ur stepdad was in prison y didnt u ever tell me that? Damn makes me wish even more i was ther <3333
Haha i literally went AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW when i read that part <333333 let me make this day special too, i love u rae so fuckin much! U make life worth livin, whenever i jus feel lik givin up i picture ur face an it jus makes me stronger. LMFAO!!!! nobody better send u hate messages or well... i cant do shit here but ill have grace (MEEEEEE!!! YES!) send her evil unicorns on em ;) Eh im still not that amazin but thnx <3 ur opinion is all that matters <3333
Haya is all that did it, but i did get a few messages from Ash & other ppl which is nice. Man i miss u guys so much i get to keep the pages that grace printed off cuz the doctors decided the worse i could do is give myself paper cuts xD so it didnt matter which i wont these papers r too precious to me i plan on readin em when i miss u guys which is ALL the time <33 Im glad u guys r tryin to stay happy i am as well, ik it isnt easy but ive gotten good at pretendin everythin is ok so the doctors will shut up & stop askin me stupid questions.
Lmao! this part... i try to be good but .... well lets jus say im not perfect ;) xD i am still kyle so i do give the doctors a hard time from time to time :3 now on a serious topic i do try incredibly hard but my first week i did have a breakdown & my head did get in a fight wit the wall...several times o.o guess who won that one...... :O u thought the wall didnt u?!??! u dont believe in me imma go cry now... :'( xDD nah i kid he did win o.O its a struggle everyday an i admit i dont always win but these letters will help so whenever u feel weak i hope these letters here help u <3 Eatin... is hard. I mean a month later & i still struggle wit eatin a whole meal they stare at me until i eat every bite an i jus cant do that.. after about 5 bites i feel the need to puke not even jus cuz of my thoughts but cuz my body jus thinks that is wat its supposed to do now that ive done it for so long. bleh but ill figure it out doctors say that if i keep pukin its gonna ruin my teeth :o i dont want that its lik the only perfect thing about me.. well that an the fact that i have ur heart <3333 i surprise myself wit how sweet i can be xD i better move on to ur next letter i could go on forever tho :P
