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• permanently there •

*trigger warning: this deals with self-harm.*

blood.
agony.
pain.
but it's all worth it.

doors locked.
home alone.
nobody cares.
anti-depressants are bullshit.

wrists torn.
mind wrecked.
heart broken.
permanently there.

the memories
are permanently there.

my body aches
as i recall
the darkest moments
of my life.

i look down at my wrist.
scars remain
permanently there.

this sucks.
people don't think
that i'm a good person;
all they see
is a boy
whose life
got messed up.
all they see
is a boy
with bad problems.

but what sucks worse
is the scars
there to constantly remember
the reason why i did it.
permanently there.

nobody wants that;
nobody wants a boy
who has depression
and was suicidal.
nobody wants me.

i don't want me.

stained floor.
stained razor.
stained body.

unsteady soul.
unsteady hands.
unsteady mind.

sliced wrists
red seeping through
the cuts made.
sliced hope
fear seeping through
the courage i held.

that voice
permanently there
to taunt me.
but i won't make
the same mistake
again.
i won't.
i won't.
i won't.
i can't.
but i want to.

a floral scent
floods my senses
and arms are wrapped
around me.
i am safe.
in her arms.
she keeps me stable.
i hope that she will be
permanently there.

a/n: i cri ;-;