My Song Journal

A girl like me

So I feel as if this song isn't good but I am putting it up anyway.

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You say I'm the best thing that has happened to you but in the back of my mind I just can't seem to believe it. I heard lots of things before you so don't blame yourself for me not knowing if I should truly believe it. I have made many mistakes and have given people too many chances. I have regrets that I'm dying to change from a past I am hiding. I want to be able to tell you everything but see my past is just so frightening.

Why do you want to be with a girl like me? I'm really messed up can't you see. My life is a train reck and I'm afraid of dragging you into it. Yet you don't want to live your life without me. Can't you see I am so broken and just don't see a possible way of repair. I think sometimes I'm better off alone I can defend myself when I'm in need. I know you want to be the best guy for me but I just can't help but find it hard to believe. Why do you want to be with a girl like me?

My past is so strange even when I tell my story people don't know what to expect. It's the reason I'm so fragile and yet I always try to hide it. My life has been a roller coaster with it's ups but mostly downs. I have seen a lot of pain and have been called many names. I guess I got used to it the numbness I felt. Is it strange to say I never noticed how bad it hurt. I hide my pain so well I almost hid it from myself. But the flashbacks show that my past was rough.

Why do you want to be with a girl like me? I'm really messed up can't you see. My life is a train reck and I'm afraid of dragging you into it. Yet you don't want to live your life without me. Can't you see I am so broken and just don't see a possible way of repair. I think sometimes I'm better off alone I can defend myself when I'm in need. I know you want to be the best guy for me but I just can't help but find it hard to believe. Why do you want to be with a girl like me?

I got a bad past I am afraid of showing to you. You seem so great and my past makes me afraid of losing you. It's something I wish I could change but god made this way. So I learn to live with it just don't want to drag you into it.

Why do you want to be with a girl like me? I'm really messed up can't you see. My life is a train reck and I'm afraid of dragging you into it. Yet you don't want to live your life without me. Can't you see I am so broken and just don't see a possible way of repair. I think sometimes I'm better off alone I can defend myself when I'm in need. I know you want to be the best guy for me but I just can't help but find it hard to believe. Why do you want to be with a girl like me?