What is going on with me lately?
I sit on the bench at the cemetery needing to get away. I just sit here and watch Larry fix things up.
"I-i don't think I was meant to come back" I gulp and stare at the ground "something wrong with me and I I just don't know what to do? I don't want to talk to anyone about it because they just won't understand"
"If you weren't meant to be here you wouldn't be here" Larry says
"Yeah I guess" I sigh
It's quiet again until I hear crunch of leaves, I look up and see Felix. "You stalking me?" I ask him not really wanting to see anyone but at the same time not wanting to be alone
He shrugs "your intersting"
"How?" I ask a little confused
"Well you do hang out at a cemetery" he gestures around us
"It's calming" I say not caring at the moment if he thinks I'm a freak
He sits next to me "as weird as that sounds, your right"
I smile happy that someone agrees with me.
"I notice you were up most of the night?" He says out of the blue
"Yeah couldn't sleep" I shrug "what your excuse?" I raise an eyebrow
He sighs "couldn't sleep" he repeats my excuse
I look at him and he looks just as worn out as me.
"Did you have a nightmare?" He asks me looking at me and waiting for my answer
"Yeah but it wasn't that bad " I say not wanting anyone to worry
"It must of been since you didn't sleep for the rest of the night" he says to me
I don't say anything because I don't know what to say. "I get it I mean I haven't been the same since my parents died and I don't think I'll ever be that person ever again" he says quietly
I look at him realize we are more alike than I thought "sometimes I wonder if I supposed to go when they did" I say and hoping he'll understand
He nods like he does "I know, but we're here and I guess we just have to do what everyone says and just move on" he says the last part bitterly
"I don't like talking to my aunt about this because I don't like to worry her, I see her watching me and I have to make sure she thinks I'm okay" I say like that we are talking like friends
"Everyone wants me to be the old Felix but I don't know him anymore and everyone needs to realize he's not coming back" he says like he's been holding all this in
"Well I didn't know him so" I shrug trying to make him feel better
He laughs and shakes his head "I'm glad otherwise you would be very disappointed with how I turned out"
I put my head on his shoulder, something I'm not sure he will like but I feel like he needs some kind of comfort and I need it too.
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This Gift I Was Given (The Boys That Lives In My House)
ParanormalMy name is Jess Taylor, I haven't had the easiest life I lost both my parents in a car crash, I even died for a couple minutes. Maybe because I lost both my parents or because I died for those couple of minutes, I had a mental breakdown and ended up...
