happiness ¤ jjk×myg

pillowtalk/

pillowtalk.

"i hate sleeping alone."

ㅡyoonkook

the bed's a funny place, actually. you could be lying right next to someone and either feel like it's the closest you ever been to a person, or they could feel a million miles away. that's what jungkook was thinking aboutㅡwhat's been bothering him the whole day as he lay on the bed back to back with min yoongi.

it's been days since they actually talked to each other, since they hold each other. and it's been long since they hugged or kissed. it's been a week since they started to go to work without each other, since they've been ignoring each other. and then it was saturday.

jungkook woke up in a shock. then he heaved a relief breath when he realized it was only a nightmare. it's been days since he actually slept. so he was a bit thankful he was able to sleep though he got nightmares. soon, he breathed more air and his head wasn't spinning anymore. only when he had calmed himself down, he realized he wasn't alone on the bed. behind him was his lover, min yoongi. who didn't have any contact with him for the past days

his mind then was full of thoughts and words. why were they ignoring each other? why they feel like fading lovers? why, when jungkook still loves yoongi with every inch of his being that it hurts? does yoongi still loves him though? what if min yoongi didn't anymore, and that's why they have not been talking together instead of ignoring?

jungkook bit his lower lip at the scary thoughts. yoongi was the one who helped him to go through his life. what would happen to jungkook once yoongi was out of his life? jungkook didn't want to think about that. but it's almost impossible not to in their situation.

jungkook wanted to talk. but he just can't find the courage to do so. though his mind were sprinting. full of thoughts and words he's just to afraid to say. what if he said something wrong and will cause yoongi to really leave him? jungkook begs to God he won't.

jungkook thought he should probably wake yoongi. he wanted to tell yoongi he didn't mean all the things he said when they fought. anger was ruling his mind, and his body. jungkook himself didn't even realized he could said that cruel things to the person he loves over just a small matter.

"is it really that bad?" jimin asked jungkook as he wasn't there to watch the fight. but jungkook stayed silent. he had called jimin and asked to meet up to talk. but jungkook didn't know telling the story would be so hard. he just couldn't bring himself to say the words again. not when yoongi's pained expression burned to his brain like a permanent tattoo.

jimin sighed and patted jungkook's shoulder. "i don't know how bad it is but seeing you so silent, i supposed, it's serious." with a glance to the younger, jimin continued, "though i can't give you the perfect advice since i don't really know, i can give you a slight clue. i've realize this after my fights with hoseok."

jungkook glanced up at jimin who was smiling at him, "couples fight, jungkook. and they who fights, lasts longer than they who don't. they last longer isn't because the fight makes them stronger, but because what happens after; the making up. it involves forgiveness, and acceptance of his mistake. couples fight, and they learn something new about the other person. that's how it works. there are no perfect couple in this world, jungkook."

jungkook came back to reality when he felt the bed moved. he glanced over and saw that yoongi was getting up. came an alert in his head that yoongi leaves him in the morning, and came back at night. but that is when they have work, and it's saturday. jungkook doesn't want to have to wait until yoongi came back at night to shout his apology. he would be dead by nervousness by then.