Learn The Game

ALFRED

"Yes, I wanna know what your fucking problem is!" I was yelling and I know she was about to start any second now.

"You!" She yelled it in a whispering voice. She sounded lonely and broken, which reminds me of myself. 

I had a bit of a confusion on my face but a hell lot of pain in my chest. "What the hell did I do?" My eyes and nose was warming up.  

She started to shake her head no at me, and I could see the tears forming in her eyes. Or at least more tears being created because of me.

"What the hell did I do?" There was a small crack in my voice. I was starting to feel a bit of pain stabbing me in my chest and my throat getting tight every minute. 

"Ava told me everything." A tear fell from the tip of her long eyelashes. She was standing in front of me and she was looking down at the ground as she snuffled. 

Rage slowly crept inside me, but my pain was crawling over that. "Listen that was the past-"

"-The past! The past is what defines us who we are today!" She yelled. She through her hands in the air causing her hair to move out of her face. 

"But I'm not fuck'en like that anymore!" I yelled back. Why can't she just believe who I truly am. 

"Really, how come you still wear that label like a king?" She cried. When she finished that fact she looked so broken by my label.

I was pacing back and fourth unsure what to say. "I-I"m not like that anymore!"

"How are you not like that anymore, what could possibly change you?!" She yelled as another tear weep down her cheek. 

I through my hands in the air, and ruffled my hair. I had those three words on the tip of my tongue but they wouldn't leave my lips. "You..."

She stood there in shock, trails of the tears that rolled down her cheeks were still wet. Her eye's had thousands of tears in them, and her once light hazel green eyes were now dark green like an abandoned forest. The tip of her nose was pink and her lips were dark red like roses. Some how in her broken down state she still drove me crazy. 

"Your the reason why I'm changing, every day and night your the first and last thought in my head. Your name is my favorite word to use, when I say your name it calms my demons and raises my angels. Through how can I let such a beast like me be with someone like you? How can I let my fucked up self be with...you?" One tear fell from my frozen blue eyes, maybe the cold ice inside of me is finally melting.

She walked straight up to me finally looking me in the eyes. "Because you've been hurt before and your scared to get attached again. It's all because you have this fear of being broken again by someone you..." She whispered.

I closed the space between us, and had my hands cupped around her cheeks. I wiped away the tears that stained her face. "Love."

I kissed her forehead and we both decided to go sit on the bed and cuddle in the blanket together. She rested her head on my chest and I had my hand on her back. We both laid there with the tears slowly going away.

"What's your story?" She whispered.

"What do you mean?" I whispered back.

"What happened in your past?" The word past itself pains me. 

"My parents there gone..." I said with a crack in my voice, causing the cracks in my heart to start hurting even more.

She turned to look up at me and I could see the empathy she had in her eyes. "I'm sorry." She hugged me.

"Don't apologize for something you had nothing to do with."  I stroke her blonde hair. 

Then there was a knock on the door, it was Rhea. "Sorry mates but I think Alfred should head back I just got a text from Clay that he wanted to see you."

I got up and gave Tatum a kiss on the forehead before I left.

When I arrived back at the hotel Clay was storming right up to me. "What the hell man?!" He yelled at me.

"Clay whats your problem?" I had my eyebrows creased together.

He huffed, then he dragged me to a room and once we were both inside he slammed the door. "How many fuck'en women do you have to sleep with?" He yelled.

I was shocked because he never curses. "What the hell are you talking about?"

He laughed by my own confusion. "Ava told me, that you two use to sleep together before she meant me."

"Listen Clay that was the fucking past and I don't have feelings for your girl. Back then I was way worse then I am today I was stupid back then alright man."

He shook his head and was rubbing his temples. "But why? Why do I have to be behind your shoulder and you act as if I were dead." I could feel the pain he has in his voice.

"Clay I don't treat you as if you were dead, you know that." I walked a few steps towards him with sorrow in my eyes.

"Well you sure as hell act like it." His voice cracked.

I walked over with no hesitation and gave the little man a hug. "I'm sorry I made you feel that way." I patted him on the back, and he did the same.

He and I walked out of the room and plopped on the couch we let the TV fill the silence between us. Because he and I both felt the tension in the air. 

To be honest I was kinda grateful for Ava to tell them because if that secret went on longer it could of been a hell lot worse. Also there has been so much emotional shit going on, it's exhausting to be honest. The only thing I can't get out of my head was the way Tatum looked when she felt broken.

I hate seeing her like that, I feel as if I have to do everything in my power to keep her happy. When she smiles it brightens my day but when she cry's it crumbles everything I have inside of me. The only thing I can say is...

...My life just took a fucking sharp turn.