AND I FELL, ALL OVER AGAIN
dear you,
we spoke again last night. i called you to tell you i've found interest in someone, but i couldn't. i couldn't form the words in my head, let alone be able to say them to you. you admitted you're still in love with me, and that you want a second chance. you said you can do better, you know what you did wrong and you'd do anything for another chance because i'm the only person you could ever find a home in. i said yes. today i'm telling the guy i thought i moved on from you with that i cant do it anymore, that i'm just not ready. and i'm not. i'm not going to dive into a relationship with you, i told you that. we both agreed to give it time, to go out on dates, to experience things together and not rush like we did the last time.
i'm happy,
you make me so happy.
but i'm so so scared because you're the only person i've ever let my guard down to, i'm vulnerable when it comes to you. all my friends don't understand, they all say you're going to hurt me again — except one, she's been in love too. she knows. my family don't like you anymore, but that'll fade, if i'm happy so are they.
here's to second chances.
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the cause of my self destruction
Randomjust an exhuast ridden girl trying to find her way through the chaos of life. - contains a series of poems, thoughts and a collection of rants by me.
