Criminals // BBS X READER

I N T O X I C A T E D

     "I don't deserve this..." I walk slowly, not knowing where to go. I keep mumbling to myself.

     "I'm innocent...I used to be. You know?!" I shouted to nowhere.

     "I WOULDN'T JOIN THEM IF IT WASN'T FOR-..." I looked down, gulping.

     "You.." Then it started raining.

     ~Delirious's POV~

     I was sleeping beside Y/N, but then I woke up and saw nobody. I feel a blanket covering me. It was Y/N's

     I looked around, feeling like I was the only person in here. I panic.

     "Where the hell did Y/n go?! I'm dead!" I went outside, then I saw our van, coming to the base.

     "Oh no..." My voice trailed off.

     "Jon! What are you doing outside?" Vanoss asked me, I have the worried expression.

     "Y/n is not here! I'm sorry! I fell asleep-" Then an angry Wildcat appeared.

     "You always fucked things up Delirious!" He shouted at me. I was silent, it was raining.

     "I know you're tired, Y/n is the one to blame. We have to at least looked out for her!" Vanoss calmly said. He then looked at Tyler, who is kicking the shit out of the tree.

     "Wildcat. Don't worry." Vanoss said.

     "How can I not worry for that stupid bitch?! Ugh!" He then walks away, assuming that he'll look out for Y/n.

     "He knows something is up with her." Lui said, who is worried as well, but he tried to stay calm.

     "She'll be fine." Vanoss said, then I remembered something.

     I heard Y/n crying in her sleep..I just looked at her. Wiped the tears away.

     "You'll be fine Y/n." I caress her hair gently.

     "I'll look out for her too. It's my fault anyway." I ran off, decided to just go. By myself...

     I just kept running and running, yet I don't have any clue where she went. But I did noticed a hoodie missing. I think it was mines.

     ~timeskip~ running

     After running and searching for Y/n, I can't seem to find her. But then I saw a person? Sitting under a tree, behind some bushes.

     I was curious to see who it was. Then I heard sniffling. I went towards the person, it was Y/n.

     I can smell alchohol..and her. She was hugging herself. With all the guilt I'm feeling. I went up to her, tap her shoulder.

     She looked up at me, with red and tired eyes. Her face is pale. She was wet, cold.

     "Jon?" I felt guilty, then I heard someone run behind me then it stopped.

     "You found her..first. Tch." I recognize that voice easily. Wildcat's.

     "What are you doing here?" We heard Y/n speak, her voice is raspy.

     "We tried our best to looked out for you! Why are you so stupid Y/n?!" Wildcat shouted at Y/n who seems to not show any reactions, except glares.

     "I DON'T DESERVE THIS SHIT!" She started crying.

     "I DON'T DESERVE GOOD THINGS! I WAS LEFT TO DIE!" She pointed at herself, and started giggling insanely.

     "THERE'S NO POINT WHY I'M STILL HERE! I'M JUST A TROUBLE MAKER! I'M A PATHETIC FAILURE!" She hold her head, looked down and mourned.

     "I DON'T KNOW WHAT REAL LOVE IS! I don't know..." She hugged herself. She looks so broken, and hurt.

     I suddenly felt the urge to hug her, and I did. I hugged her tightly. She hugged back, and her fingers dugged to my skin slightly.

     "I'm here and I will be the one..to guide you. Even if I'm nothing special." She went quiet.

     "I hope you weren't just doing this just to make me feel okay.." She mumbled, and I nodded.

     "I'm not." I stood up, and took her to my arms. But right after that happened.

     She passed out.

    Wildcat helped me. He was doing it for Y/n. I know he hated me for such a long time now.

     I understand. I'm not the greatest person, I'm not born in this world to be liked by everybody. I don't deserve that.

     But now that I have promised something to Y/n. I'll do everything for her. As long as..she felt the love.

     I used to have.

- our love is god. -