Please hold me - Jylan

Getting worse

Guys I promise I'll do my best and will not bore you to death
*This chapter is a bit triggering*

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Things got out of control. He started beating me whenever he got mad or secretly pinch me when we're sitting on a couch together. I know this relationship is toxic but I can't let him go. I don't know how to. He always seemed so perfect and loving. So I'll cry every night , get myself to sleep in tears. I had depression before I met Aaron and it's coming back. I cannot control how I feel anymore. I became so much weaker and my heart can't find a place to rest. Aaron used to comfort me when I was having a bad day but now he's the reason I'm having a bad day. I'll rush home after school and just cry. Letting everything out , even my blood coming out from my body. Sitting on my bed with a blade against my wrist. It felt so much better when I felt warmth rush through those cuts. Looking at my messed up wrist , with new and old cuts and scars. I'm disappointed at myself. I would rather put myself in pain than break up with Aaron. he is everything to me and losing him is the worst thing that could happen. How I wish he didn't kiss me that day in that toilet stall after gym class.

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I promise from now on no more self harm content
Tell me how can I change my fan fiction because I am still quite disappointed in them