Falling - Phan

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Trigger warning throughout entire book: suicidal thoughts, suicide attempts, mentions of depression.

~Dan~

I can't do this anymore.

The heavy rain splashed on the pavement, forming puddles, and the dark, dreary clouds loomed overhead. I was panting as I was running away from home; my breathes jagged and sharp, however I didn't stop. No, not until I reached the bridge.

I used to love the bridge as a child, my mum would take me with my brother and we'd watch the river flow below us, we used to stay there for hours, it was fun and I felt happy, I miss those days.

Thunder boomed in the sky, this storm was huge so I knew the torrent in the river underneath the tall abandoned train bridge would be strong enough.

My clothes were already dripping wet but that didn't bother me. I was determined to reach my destination and began picking up the speed, now sprinting through the outskirts of the small town I lived in, I took it all in one last time.

No one would miss me. Not even my mother, I barely ever saw her anyway, she always so busy with her work.

I was nearing the derelict bridge and was now running swiftly through the fields of long grass and large trees. I knew exactly where I was going as I had been here many times before, mostly in my childhood.

My lungs were burning and so were my legs while my heart was thumping as loud as the thunder, even though it was only a five minute walk from my house, my body was not used being forced through this amount of physical exercise.

I was approaching the part of the river where the bridge crossed over it. Finally.

Tears already rolling down my face, nevertheless I was glad no one had to look at my ugly, pathetic, stupid excuse for a human being any longer.

I was now on the bridge and running over to the railing regardless of my body screaming out in agony. I climbed carelessly onto the other side of it. Holding onto the railing, I leant over the side, almost slipping and falling prematurely.

My life began practically flashing before my eyes; the good moments I had with my brother,  Adrian, the only person I cared about throughout my existence on the Earth. I would miss him. I never even properly said goodbye to him.

I quickly began regretting my decisions and attempted climbing back over the slippery railing. In a panic (A/N at the disco) my foot slipped off the edge, I tried desperately to regain my balance but it was too late, I was falling. This was the end.

The shock of the cold water hitting my already somewhat frozen body almost made me blackout instantly, the current dragged my hopeless body down under the water, my lungs still exhausted from running began filling with water as I helplessly accepted my fate. The last thing I remembered was the muffled sound of Adrian's worried scream and then everything turned black.

A/N- so that was the first cringey chapter of my new cliché book. I have barely any idea what the plot of the book is but I'll just make it up along the way :))