Learn The Game

ALFRED

She looked down at my hand and I let go, I didn't know why I grabbed her hand or spoke gentle to her.  She looked back at me her eyes were studying me trying to figure out what my plans are. "Okay."

She followed where I walked, she was right behind me which I didn't like that. So I pulled her right next to me. We walked down the sidewalk around us was grass and trees it was a park. I looked down at the concrete her and I didn't say a word it was peaceful and quite. The girls that I have been with have always hated the silence, and there reason was because they wanted to hear my voice.

But Tatum isn't like those other girls, shes not afraid to stick up for herself. She works hard for what she wants and she deserves the things that she wants. Through I don't get why she hasn't ran away from me, she's walking right next to as if she's fine with hanging out with such a monster.

I cleared my throat, and Tatum looked at me waiting for me to say something. "I brought you out her cause I wanted to show you something." She shook her head, we walked up a grassy hill and there stood in front of us was the city of lights.

I turned to look at her and she was in the zone of the beauty of the city. Her eyes were gleaming yet I kinda feel like its the lights refracting off of her eyes. "So what do you think?" I turned back to the city.

"It's beautiful." She had a hard time to look away, but she was able to look me in the eyes.

She was smiling and that made me think of my mothers smile, but I pushed that thought to the side. "The city may look beautiful but-"

All of a sudden bright lights were flashing, blinding Tatum and I. It was the damn paparazzi, I grabbed her hand and shoved her through the people. I have to get her out of here, we both started to jog which surprised me that Tatum is able to run in heels.

Once we were in the car I drove off immediately before the paparazzi could follow. I continued to drive down the road not sure where to go, rather to her place or mine. I was so deep into my mind that I wasn't paying any attention to the speed.

"Alfred!" Tatum yelled which caused me to leave my mind and slam on the breaks. I turned to look at her, her hair was messy but it was her face that caused my hairs to rise. Her expression expressed worry, her eyebrows were creased downwards, her and her eyes were dark and unreadable.

"Take me home." She looked down at her lap as she spoke.

I didn't decide to argue with her, cause I understood how she wanted to go home. As we drove to her hotel all you can hear was the engine roaring. When we arrived I got out of the car as she did, she saw me get out of the car.

"I think it's best to just end the day as this." She looked at me almost broken to say that, but she manged to pull a smile on her face. Through I wasn't sure if it was to comfort me or her. She turned and walked towards the building, I watched her leave until I couldn't see her anymore. Than I left heading to my place.

Everything was going well until those jackasses had to come and ruin everything. She was happy, she didn't try to run or argue. I was happy as well she was making my worriers fade away. But some point you have to come back to reality, and you can't fight reality no matter what you do. Trust me I've tried that already it just causes you to break even more.

I opened the hotel door slamming it behind me, and that caused Ava and Clay to inhale air because I scared them. I'm surprised that there back before I was, I thought they would of gotten it on or something but I guess not.

I kicked off my shoes, picking them up then heading towards my room. The heat inside me was getting hotter, my demons were ready to escape and do some damage to what surrounds me. I made eye contact with Clay and that gave him a hint to come with me. He followed me into my room slamming the door behind me. I threw my shoes across the room and ruffled my hair.

"What happened?" Clay looked me in the eyes with worry and confusion. I meant his brown eyes he really wants to help me.

"The Fuck'en Paparazzi that's what the fuck happened!" I slid my hands through my hair pacing back and fourth.

"Okay man were figure something out." He put his hands up as if telling me to stop and listen. He was talking calmly to me trying to keep me under control as if I was a tame less loin.

I plumped myself on the edge of the bed and put my head into my hands. "What I need you to do right know is to take your girl and leave. Because if you don't you'll be in hell." I didn't bother to look up at Clay, I knew that he was disappointed that I pushed him away.

I heard the door click and soon after I heard the front door close. I through a few things across the room but out of no where my mothers smile came in my mind. That caused me to fall on my messed up bed. I whispered to myself "What am I suppose to do?". I closed my eyes and had a flash back.

"What am I suppose to do?" I crossed my legs and in front of me was my dead pet bird. Tears ran down my cheeks and my nose became stuffy. Soon I heard footsteps walk towards me, and someone bent down to my height. "Alfred." A calming, gentle voice spoke to me. I looked up and there stood my mother she looked like she was in her late twenty's, but she was really in her mid thirty's. She had her warm hand on my cheek and wiped a tear that was slowly running down my cheek. "Sometimes there are things that you can't control." I sniffed and was calming down by my mothers hug. "The only thing we can do is heal and move forward, but never forget through always forgive." I didn't look up at her , so she put her hand on my chin to make me look up and kissed me on the forehead.

I blinked and was back into my destroyed room, I remember that soon after we bared the bird in the back yard in front of a oak tree. But what surprised me was that a tear feel from my eye, I can't remember the last time a tear fell from my stone cold eyes.

...All I can say is that somethings changing...